On and up in the world

S33menow · 30-07-2013, 04:37 AM

I'm moving in with my long term partner of 2 years and 7 months in less than 2 weeks. This is a huge leap for me as I had an attachment disorder and it was thought that I would never properly form any kind of relationship with people. I suppose I owe that to all the different therapists that worked with me between the ages of 8 and 18.
Cleared most of my bills that had stacked up when I was unwell earlier this year.
I have an unconditional college place for an access course beginning in September to do mechanical engineering.
My weight is coming down, (just into BMI obese range atm).
No cutting or overdosing since 8th of June. Only minor self-harm and self-neglect.
Last hospital stay 18th July.
My catheter is coming out later today!!! :D

I still have one concern though... I'm frightened I'm gonna mess it all up again. :/

S33menow · 30-07-2013, 10:53 AM

Due to the decrease in the level of my self-harm, today I was finally allowed to learn to intermittent self catheterise (my bladder stopped working a few months back and they were afraid I wouldn't manage this by myself so never gave me the chance). ANDDDDDDDD I got it first go! yayayayayyay :D This means things can be a lot more normal again in more ways than in the bathroom... I can go on fair rides, use gym equipment, learn to drive and even jump up and down without a spasm making me wet myself :D

TimesLikeThese · 30-07-2013, 05:31 PM

This all sounds really positive, I'm pleased for you! :) I hope things continue to improve for you! xxxx

DontLookUp · 31-07-2013, 02:06 PM

This really sounds amazing and like you are taking some big steps forward! well done :)
I know it can see scary and scary to try maintaining these things but you just have to try your best, that is all you can do. if things mess up, be gentle on yourself and see how far you have come and realise it is possible to pick yourself up and keep going.

Pi.R^2 · 04-08-2013, 12:38 AM

It sounds like you've come really far, so well done!

In terms of worrying about messing it up again; just remember that you've overcome so much and that proves that you have the power to do great things. Try not to allow yourself to worry too much about that, as pre-empting a slip-up makes it more likely to happen!

Best of luck and congratulations again :)