Contains ED - Had to go clothes shopping today!!

[Born Survivor]

Woke up this morning and found out that half of my jeans in my wardrobe do not fit anymore at all... Well the fit length wise but not across the waist... Which means about 4 pairs of jeans that are in decent condition have to go to the charity shop now...

So this meant going to town with Mum shopping for new jeans so that meant trying them on before i bought them EEKKK!! I hate hate trying on jeans worst thing ever.. In the end had to try on 12 different pairs of jeans to work out what "size" i was. I have no understanding of sizes but i've gone up 1/2 sizes (depending on jean type and what shop etc). Mum says that's good.. Got 4 pairs of new jeans that actually fit as well for a good price :)

If i have to go up in “size" for jeans, guess it shows my hard work is paying off. I’m showing anorexia who is boss ME :). Good good good!! Just got to keep it up now! Going back just isn't an option..

18 months ago the nurse at the ED clinic told me i had months to live, i discharged myself asap and realised i could get better on my own without being "told" how to recover... Haven't looked back since..

(P.s trying on jeans is so draining, LA Ink series two helped though!)

[TimesLikeThese]

This is really positive! I especially like how you've said you're showing anorexia who's boss! I hope your positive recovery continues :)

[MissAnonymous]

That's AWESOME Paul! You are the boss, well done for fighting; its working.

Recovery on your own merit alone is something to be very proud of :D

x

[Tig]

That's so awesome, well done :) You should be super proud of yourself. x

[Born Survivor]

I did go back to the doctors about 6 months after i discharged myself and said "i'm struggling a bit is their any other help?"... His response "You're depressed take some antidepressants and start exercising it will help you feel better".. I replied "I have anorexia if i exercise i'll just get worse.." "Rubbish you're talking rubbish, just exercise"...

Yeah, i haven't been to the Doctor's since... I haven't got any friends or family (except Mum and Dad but Me and Dad don't have a real relationship) so i've done this truly on my own, Mum has helped but she is only one person, so can only do and cope with so much.

So yeah not easy at all.

[DontLookUp]

i know its not easy at all, but you are doing so so well and YOU are taking back control over your ED and that is so strong of you xxx