let down?
Has anyone ever had the most amazing day EVER, been on the top of the world..not been able to stop smiling, and then called a friend just to talk about how amazing it was..and then suddenly become so depressed and upset you dont even know what to do with yourself?
yesterday was AMAZING. i had the best day of my life with this guy.
ive never met someone whos so good to me, in my entire life. he has no reason to be so nice to me, im just some girl at the barn..and i happen to be riding one of his horses. but hes SO nice. he compliments me, he helps me put my stuff away, hes SUCH a gentleman.
we took the horses out for a ride last night in the back field and talked for hours while the sun set, it was the most beautiful thing i have ever experienced in my entire life. this is such a new experience for me, he's an amazing guy..the type i would never in a million years go for.
he's nice, caring, blonde hair, blue eyes, fit, athletic..rugby, riding, hockey and soccer..he's good clean fun, no drugs..he doesnt drink regularily..he treats girls with the respect that they deserve.
Like i said, never in a million years the type of guy i would go for.
He just makes me feel SO amazing. after i got home from the barn, sitting on cloud nine..i called my friend Amanda to just gush over how amazing he was. i was so excited, it was a new feeling that ive never felt before, and it felt so awesome.
so then..explain to me why not even 5 hours later i just got hit with this wall of depression..and all i wanted to do was sit alone in my room and listen to quiet sad music.
i worked a midnight last night, and just kept the quiet music on all night and thought.
I slept all day, and when i woke up it was cloudy and rainy, and my mood just went flying down even further. and just now i suddenly burst into tears..and i wasnt even entirely sure what i was crying over.
how can someone go from being SO happy, to so upset so fast? nothing terrible even happened to me.
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