You are all amazing :) Hang in there!
Today I got up, went to class, and did everything I had to do. I know it doesn't sound like much, but today it was a lot.
I've been doing a lot of thinking recently and I arrived at the conclusion that I need to give up the behaviors I am still in control of so I can use all my energy to deal with the ones I don't have any control of.
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I'm going to chuck out le blades today. And as the world didn't end despite my not purging a couple of days I might give that up as well. You know, so I can get a f*cking grip on my eating patterns ^^
I will also leave the house now so I can finally get those meds I got prescribed about two weeks ago :P
Everyone here on this thread is amazing and awesome, All of you are so brave and awesome and yeah awesome, you know where i'm going with this :P
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I tried to post this here yesterday and I kinda freaked out so ended up deleting it so i'm going to try and be brave and keep this here.. Anyways as of yesterday I am 35 days SH free, well that's 36 now :)
its not pointless at all mike you are doing really well ..welldone on 36 days
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am doing ok managed to get through today ok wanted to cut my face voices telling me to do it and the thoughts are bad but i have been praying and reading the Qur'an and it helps so much
Lana, that is AMAZING and I am so so proud of you :)
Mike, that is absolutely not pointless. That's something to celebrate, you are awesome!
Aamanee, I'm sorry it's been a struggle, but I'm so glad that you've managed to be doing well, and that you found something that helps and have been using it.
Carmen, I'm glad you could beat the thoughts for today, and I hope you manage to call the doctor. Asking for help is hard, but you can do it.
You are all inspirations :)
I suddenly realised that is has been the better part of a week since I acted on certain urges. Not much, but I'm more surprised by the fact that I've had a couple of days where I haven't even thought of certain urges.
And yet, by heaven, I think my love as rare,
As any she belied with false compare.
I felt that my behaviour was a bit beyond during a lesson, i was just all over the place, and i talked to my form teacher about it and she spoke to the teacher and they said they thought i was fine. So ive done talking to someone a little bit, and also getting a bit of reassurance on thoughts that werent true. So i think maybe thats not too bad?
Well done everyone you are all super
He was no longer jean valjean but no. 24601 -les miserable
Some of life's mysteries will never be solved, such as why, after spending an entire evening listenong to Bach, do I find myself humming "the birdie song".......
I am reaching, but i fall, and the stars are black and cold, as i stare into the void of a world that cannot hold- les miserables
Conor- well done for getting out of bed AND going to buy food!
Claire-rose- EWW sweetcorn. But in lighter news, congrats on passing the aikido grading; that's awesome. Also, very proud of you for resisting the urges; you're doing so well :)
Kia- well done for getting through the party, I know you found it difficult.
aamanee- three weeks free! That's wonderful! Keep it up it sounds like you're struggling with some serious urges, and you're doing so well to focus on your religion and take your mind off them.
Ilana- well done for getting up and going to class! I know sometimes that can be an enormous effort!
Lana- that's truly wonderful. You can do this. I have every faith in you <3
Mike- 36 days!!! Like a pro. Awesome news =D
Carmen- well done for changing your nutritional plans for the day to much wiser ones. I hope you manage to call your doctor too
Alex- it's fantastic that you were able to talk to someone about how you were feeling. Good show!
Lots of hero love and stickers and glitter to you all!!!
Today I washed up and made a meal of chilli (with real mince which was scary!) and a bit of rice (again, scary!) for me and Jenna with lots of veggies.
A big FU to depression coz I didn't want to do anything productive!
I am very, very proud of you, Jodie, my lovely. <3 I love you.
I am also exceptionally proud of you too, Lanabanana, you're amazing. Love you <3
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.