Feelin' Kinda Broken

S3V3N · 15-05-2013, 07:27 PM

Hi, I'm S3V3N.

Been a bit of a mess since the death of my mom last year. To keep a long story short - in January 1998 my father died by suicide and then last year my mother died of cancer. I'm angry, conflicted and sad all at once. Every January I lose my mind - in Jan 2012 I tried to O.D on my mom's cancer meds (she didn't need them anymore). That was my last attempt, but this year in January I was forced to go on stress leave by my work. I should be getting better, not worse. I feel I have no where to turn to, I've tried therapy, I'm on medication for anxiety and depression. I'm single and have no kids. I'm broken but somehow I carry on. I'm a functioning alcoholic with no interest in quitting. I guess I'm not really looking for help at this point. I just want to talk to people that can empathize somewhat with what I'm dealing with. No one IRL 'gets it'.

Thanks for reading.

S3V3N

luceroff · 15-05-2013, 10:26 PM

Sorry to hear all that, it must be hard and I completely understand the whole no one getting it. If you want to chat more feel free to PM me

xx

DontLookUp · 17-05-2013, 12:14 AM

hey seven, welcome to RYL,
I'm sorry for your losses, i cant imagine how hard that must be for you.
I hope you can find the support you need here, a lot of people on here understand the things you are going through xxx

Wonderland. · 17-05-2013, 04:11 AM

Welcome to RYL (:

S3V3N · 27-07-2020, 06:37 AM

It's really strange to look back at this thread. I was in so much pain back then and things really did only get worse. 2013 was the worst year of my life, hands down.

I've traveled down one hell of path since, life is strange and unpredictable.

Lately I've found myself digging up old passwords to places I visited looking for support following the death of my mother. Although I'm doing much better than I was back then, I still have a lot of work to do.

one_step_closer · 28-07-2020, 04:31 PM

Keep going. Are you planning on coming back here for a while?

S3V3N · 29-07-2020, 01:43 PM

I think I will. I wanted to come back but for the life of me I couldn't remember the name of this forum. I finally remember a few days ago. When I first joined I was a bit thrown off by a member here but that person was eventually banned. I think I could definitely use a site like this for my mental health.