I've been wavering over posting this because I'm going to sound like an idiot!
Have you tried any natural remedies for your ear?
My mums favourite is boiling half an onion then putting it inside a sock and holding it on your ear, you have to sort of lie on it so the stream from it gets into your ear. It's meant to move the gunk out. Even if it doesn't work, the heat is soothing.
The thing that worked for me was chewing gum containing xylitol. Works for blocked noses and sinuses too!
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Just letting you know we are here for you, and you are not alone. I'm glad you've heard back from some of the uncertain things. Take a deep breath, you will be okay, you are strong x
i'm about now...... hope you're ok stellata.
i'm glad it wasnt too bad with your ex-landlady.
is it your birthday today?
how your iphone that must be really cool. i treated myself to an ipad after xmas, never had anything like that before but it means i get to go online more which is good now that i've discovered the forums.
Happy birthday Katie I know birthdays can cause a flurry of different emotions so I hope you are ok and using the skills you have learnt in therapy to get as much happiness as possible from today x
Actually, I've been crying. Which has been needed for a long time. Just would have preferred that it wasn't today.
People my age can cry. It's ok. I have a lot to grieve over.
And my hormones are flowing about.
And actually, I feel really bad. But feeling bad isn't bad in itself. I just, have to flow with it, and know that it won't last forever.
It sounds like you are working through things in a very positive way and I agree with everything you said about crying etc. If you can, maybe try and end the day on a more positive note and do something that relaxes you? I also think making a list of all the positive steps you've taken and things that have happened, that you've made happen, in the last year would be really great! It might help highlight how far you've come. What goals do you have for the next year?
I'm going to have a shower very soon. And I think I'm going to have a sleeping tablet tonight. I am so very pre-menstrual, which intensifies everything, and I don't want destructive thoughts to rule. I spent too much of my life hating myself - and that's one of the things I'm grieving right now.
My goals, I'm not sure. I will ponder when my mind is a bit clearer. Thanks. :)
Shower sounds like a good idea I think some grieving is good, just try not to spend too much time grieving for the time you 'wasted' hating yourself. That's just more time you are focusing on the past and negatives when you could be recovering and building an even better future x
Maybe looking at your short-medium term goals for therapy etc would also be a good move when you are feeling a little stronger
I'm not actually consciously grieving actively, if that makes sense. It's feeling beneath that I am accepting. I'm not thinking about it, it's like pure feeling that I need to allow to flow through.
Well, my main goals are to have friends to spend time with. To build proper friendships. I'm doing a lot of the steps towards that, going to groups etc. Just, I can't seem to yet take the step beyond that to feel I'm worth someone spending time with, because I appreciate them and they me.
Just checking in quick..... Hope all's ok, hormones excepted of course, darned things....... I won't b online til Sunday as I'm away for the weekend but will come back to see how u r doing. Doh, yes u did say iPod... It was wishful thinking on my part! Anyway, still. A pretty cool possession to have. Are u finding the things u uploaded to it helpful?
Thank you Tessa. I hope you have a good weekend. :)
I'm really not ok. I just don't feel right. Everything feels all wrong. I should be ok. I'm just, not. Actually, I feel terrible. I often feel low just before my period, but this is way more intense.
Well, I'm in intense PMS phase [but don't usually feel this 'off'].
I've had 4 days off from work, which I needed. But I've started to feel so so isolated. And am isolating myself further on top, because of feeling so cranky and out of sorts. I'm back to work tomorrow, but I'm not looking forward to it, because I feel so low.
I went in to drop off my prescription request this morning, and was going to ask to make an appointment with the nurse to check my ear. But I didn't ask because they were busy and were kind of abrupt when I couldn't at first find the right box to put the form in. It just didn't feel safe to approach.
On Monday I start with the back office work stuff. It's all very chaotic, even managers aren't sure exactly how things will be. I feel really lost.
I need to email my ex landlady back. I just, want to hide. But I know I can't.
I'm afraid I have no useful advice, but I wanted to send some hugs.:hug:
Keep doing things that soothe you, like listening to music, your relaxation tracks etc.
Try to remind yourself how strong you are. You moved house, which is unbelievably stressful. Tell yourself if you can do that you can do anything. Have faith in yourself.
Uh. Typical. I'm off work for several days, and then go back on the day it's looking like it does out of my window! And with PMS cramping on top! Going back to bed would be wondrous.. But..
How was it back at work? Where my partner works they have had lots of reshuffling going on & it certainly is stressful for anyone involved.
I have joined you in PMT I think. My weekend away left me feeling tired as well. Maybe it's that a ¬ hormones. Oh who knows....... I would say "who cares" but actually I care!!
Anyway, let me know how u r doing.
I know birthdays can cause a flurry of different emotions so I hope you are ok and using the skills you have learnt in therapy to get as much happiness as possible from today x
