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Old 20-09-2020, 07:35 PM   #81
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im evil im evil!!!!!!!!IM SO GOD DAMN EVIL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Old 20-09-2020, 10:09 PM   #82
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There is nothing wrong with being attracted to people of the same gender. Nothing at all. I know a priest who identifies as a lesbian and lived with a woman for 20 years, whilst holding services. Unfortunately some people still judge. I don’t necessarily believe in God but I saw your r&v. Another way of looking at that is that if God creates life, then why would he create something that is ‘evil’? Similarly, on a personal note, my mother identifies as a lesbian and I have lesbian friends who also have children and those children identify as heterosexual. My sister and I are a teacher and a nurse. If God existed and created anyone for ‘entertainment’ (I can’t remember the exact phrase you used), why would he (or she) make it possible for them to have children who do good?





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Old 21-09-2020, 03:49 PM   #83
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youre right!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:cr ying:



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Old 21-09-2020, 07:55 PM   #84
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how do i come out to my parents though?



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Old 22-09-2020, 02:01 PM   #85
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Is it important for you to come out to your parents right in this time. Maybe you could take some time to work things out and find the best option for you.





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Old 22-09-2020, 04:30 PM   #86
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ok i will thanks



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Old 22-09-2020, 10:11 PM   #87
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i cant yet allow myself to think of other ladys as beautiful and as pretty without feeling shame.... but im trying not be ashamed of being gay.......



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Old 23-09-2020, 01:22 AM   #88
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Maybe you should work on your own feelings and being comfortable in your own skin before thinking about telling your family?



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Old 23-09-2020, 01:32 AM   #89
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ok ill try but how do i do that?...


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Old 23-09-2020, 09:17 PM   #90
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The following content has been hidden - Reason : *breaks down and cries* a PM i sent a RYLer
.....im sorry for bothering you but i really need to talk to someone...... i cant get my dads words out of my mind while i write my story the shattered life because the character Kaci from my story is based off of my first love (her looks and personality and only a little bit of she went through) i cant handle my thoughts anymore....... i need to die......
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Old 23-09-2020, 09:37 PM   #91
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all i hear in my head are my dads words.....stuff like abomination, sin and hell!!!!!!!!!!



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Old 24-09-2020, 12:03 AM   #92
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Can you talk to the group home staff? I get maybe you haven’t had the best experiences so far but the more you talk to them, the more they’ll learn what you need support with. Has anyone ever done any mindfulness or impulse control work with you?


Things sound really overwhelming-
I’m sorry you’re feeling so crappy. Keep talking to people though and explaining what you need etc. Do you have a MH team you see?





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Old 24-09-2020, 01:42 AM   #93
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no.....

i have a therapist but i really dont trust or like at all........



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Old 24-09-2020, 06:57 PM   #94
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Can't you ask to change to someone else? You might find that you get on with someone new better and they may be able to help you more.


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Old 24-09-2020, 08:00 PM   #95
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i tried to change therapist but it didn't work the boss of the group home wouldn't change my therapist

im sorry.....ill try to type more clearer and better...



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Old 24-09-2020, 08:41 PM   #96
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It sounds like you need the service of an advocate or your family to speak on your behalf. That way you can get a different therapist who you can trust.



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Old 24-09-2020, 09:19 PM   #97
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i dont know if i want to tell my family.... i dont want to bother anyone about this.......



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Old 25-09-2020, 02:09 AM   #98
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OP, this is your thread. If you find using emojis and punctuation helpful then by all means use it.

I was wondering why you needed the group home to change your therapist? And also whether they gave you any reasons why they didn’t want to change?





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Old 25-09-2020, 02:37 AM   #99
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ok i will thank you pomegranate!!!! =)

because they are ones who got the therapist for me.....
the boss of the group home didnt want to look for another therpist if i had one "good" one already....



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Old 25-09-2020, 03:21 AM   #100
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I think you've said before you are in the US. Even if you are under legal guardianship (unsure if you are or not), you do still have rights. If they aren't listening to you, you should be able to ask for an advocate. If they refuse, you can reach out to your local legal aid society to ask for help finding an advocate.

That said, if you are under legal guardianship, decisions surrounding your care may have to go through your legal guardian. Not 100% sure how that would work or if that is your situation, but that is again where a legal aid society might be of use to help you better understand what rights you have as far as getting a say in your own care.

You could also ask for your patient rights or resident rights as a member of the group home. By law, they should have to provide that to you in writing upon request.



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