Different times

[tamobhuuta]

Hi everyone.

Does anyone have a particular time of day when self injury or suicide thoughts are worse?

[Soft Kitty]

I voted morning (very early morning) and evening (late evening).

Do you tend to have better or worse times?

[tamobhuuta]

Yes, mornings are worse for me.

[nonperson]

Having trouble deciding on an answer for that but I've ticked morning, particularly when I don't have to get up to be somewhere like work or have things to keep me occupied.

[chinahorse]

Night and evening for me.

[one_step_closer]

I think morning is the only time I'm not too bad with urges, most of the time anyway.

[tamobhuuta]

The past couple of days I have been avoiding the support forums here in the morning and I think it is helping the morning thoughts and urges.

[one_step_closer]

That's a really good idea and I'm glad it's helping. Don't feel like you have to be around the support forums at all if it's bad for you.

[tamobhuuta]

I know mornings are usually worse for me. I just ignore the urges and thoughts but I wondered if anyone had ideas for actually decreasing them?

[one_step_closer]

Can you figure out what it is about the morning that makes the urges worse? Are you lower than the rest of the day, or tired, or what? Maybe if you can figure that out you could look at ways to help with those things and that might lessen the urges.

[tamobhuuta]

I think it's partly because in the morning I have the whole day ahead of me.

[one_step_closer]

What is it about having the whole day ahead of you that's difficult? Would it help to plan things the night before or write a list of plans in the morning? Do you feel like there's too much time to occupy yourself or too much that you need to get done? I know it's hard not to focus on all the time that is ahead of you but if it's overwhelming then could you practice mindfulness/trying to stay in the moment?

[tamobhuuta]

I suppose I know I'm going to feel anxious and scared and i might have to fight voices. I've been going to church every morning so I have opportunities to buy blades and pills. But I love going to Mass and having a walk.

[one_step_closer]

Those are a lot of worries to have, and they are still mights not definite so it's a shame that you're getting caught up in that worry. It's good that you have Mass to go to, maybe you could try and focus on that and the walk rather than the bad things that you fear might happen. You've been doing really well, you are stronger than the urges etc, and I hope that with time you find it less of a fight.

[Darkwings44]

......... i checked all of them....cause its mostly all day.....

[tamobhuuta]

Sorry to hear that dark wings, thanks for doing the poll.

[tamobhuuta]

The more I have to do in a day, the more stressed I feel.

[one_step_closer]

It is stressful to have lots of things to be getting on with. Do you find yourself thinking lots about what you need to be doing next even when you're doing something else? It would be good if you could stay in the moment more with things and not see a huge picture of all the things you need to do with your day.

[tamobhuuta]

I think I already live in the moment. Apart from those minutes between getting dressed and leaving the house. Maybe that lingers during the day?

[one_step_closer]

Is that the most anxious time for you, before you get your day properly started?