Hi, I don't know how many people will remember me but I used to be very active on here for years and was a supporter and a mod but in 2013 I decided, along with my psychiatrist, that I should step down from my roles and then leave RYL altogether.
I've been thinking a lot about possibly returning but it's quite upsetting because I wouldn't be on the support team (although I know that won't stop me supporting on the forums). I'm also worried that I won't be good enough to be here and no one will want me back. On top of that i'd have to keep a close eye on how being back affects my health.
I know this is kind of a support post but I wanted to put it in general so people who might remember me could see it. I'm looking for opinions on what I should do but I know ultimately it's my choice. What would you do? I know everyone loves that question!
(Maybe) hope to get to know everyone again.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
As you said you can always support on the forums and in chat.
The choice is yours a few things to consider
. Are you in a better place than when you left to support?
. How do you think with seeing mostly negative posts?
. You can always re apply for the supporters.
Yay for someone remembering me! Thanks for your reply, Laura.
I think in some ways my mental health has improved but in other ways it has become worse but i'm sure I could avoid posts that could affect me badly. I often wish I had RYL to fall back on as my treatment team is being crap right now.
I might give returning here a go and just see what it feels like.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
Wannabe CPN : -)
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Gosh you're part of RYL's DNA.
I wouldn't analyse things too much since RYL is a pretty tidy affair these days. Any "support team" might post more than members on any given day lol
Lins :) of course I remember you as we are on facebook! (this is control freak/Sarah). You're always welcome to post here, maybe see how you feel and get to know some people? x
Isn’t it funny how day by day nothing changes but when you look back, everything is different…
you once called your brain a hard drive, well say hello to the virus.
I'm looking on gumtree at cars because I really, really want the experience of driving again but I think it'll be a waste of money as i'm not confident enough to drive far and I have a bus pass anyway. I just miss driving.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
Thanks. I don't see my masters as much of an achievement however I was very surprised that I passed (and I got a merit) because I struggled with it so much and didn't enjoy it because i'm not interested in stats. I only did that course because my OT told me not to do the psychology and mental health course I was interested in and now it doesn't exist any more. A bit annoyed.
I don't want to go back to driving lessons in case they tell me i'm a crap driver!
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
I remember you and you were such an awesome part of Ryl of old. I remember when you made the decision to leave and it seemed such a positive one in terms of your health. I wonder if you could talk it through with your psychiatrist or someone who has known you before and after you left.
I've been on Ryl for ages and have seen people come and go and I'm a huge supporter of Ryl but am also aware it makes some people worse so I would say welcome back but Tread carefully?
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