Everything I try at, I fail.
I tried to help my best friend, I tried and tried and tried to be good enough, and be good. He doesn't want to know me, again.
I tried to be a good girlfriend, I made so many mistakes and failed.
I tried to do well in these exams but I can't focus and I have failed.
I tried to give up all the things I said I would, and even though I did it HASN'T CHANGED ANYTHING.
I just don't know what to do anymore. Without him, I am nothing. I had to go through three months without him before, I cried almost every night - I can't do it again.
What do I do? Someone?
It hurts, it hurts so much and I'm falling apart.
And I was so happy, falling is harder when you fall from a height.
But anyways, i know how you feel, just keep your chin up, things can only get better as they say (Apparently :( ) But just try to feel better, you're not a failure, you're great! Hugs.
On a long enough time line, the survival rate for everyone drops to zero.
It really sounds like you're struggling. But, you know what - you are trying. You are trying in every single one of those things you mentioned and wether or not you think you are measuring up to your expectations (Which are probably too high, anyway) you are still in there trying and that is such an important thing. Failure is when you don't try.
I know it's hard, but try not to base your happines son someone else. Do some thing you like & that you can enjoy, by yourself, even if only to pick your mood up a little bit. It sounds as though you need someone to talk to, and I'm really glad we're here for that, but are you seeing anyone professional, also? It might help for you to have a listening ear at this point in time.
*squishes*
Don't be so hard on yourself dalrling
xoxoxox
Aimee
Like everyone else has said, don't be so hard on yourself. You've tried your best, that's all that matters. And nah you don't need him to be something. You can be something, do good on your own. You are still a good person. I hope you realize this. *hugs*
Haha, literally minutes after I posted this my boyfriend got reallt upset, one of my best friends decided he wanted to kill himself and another decided he'd "think" about wanting to see me again.
But now I have to revise, my head is so full of rubbish ^^
Thankyou guys, I know I shouldn't put hope on other people but I can never see the point in anything if I'm not making others happy. And I always seem to do the opposite.
