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13-09-2011, 03:44 PM
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First one done
Yesterday I achieved what seemed the impossible. Yesterday I celebrated one year of being injury free.
The mere idea of this used to scare me to death. The fear of a life without my 'crutch' was just too much to even comprehend.
I remember when I decided that I was really going to make an effort. I had made some drastic changes in my life - I ended a toxic long term on/off relationship and gave up eating meat just to feel a bit healthier - and thought to myself that three was a nice round number, I should just try and do it all.
Somehow it has worked, I have managed to maintain all three of those goals. The toxic man is completely out of my life and I have started dating since which is motivating and encouraging. I am still a vegetarian and enjoying it immensely. I am most proud of 366 days of no cutting.
I have to thank my angels above and on earth for supporting me through this time. It was not easy let me tell you! What really made a difference was I was honest with my closest friends about how much trouble I felt I was in and when I had a weak moment or felt a strong urge I would pick up the phone and actually talk to someone or just text someone - even at 3am. The idea was to put my intention out there so I was responsible for whatever actions I took, and the person on the other end would be disappointed if i failed which would feel worse. I made one of those phone calls last week even.
I still feel I have a way to go before being free of this urge. I still cannot bring myself to discard my implement, but for now that's ok with me. I gain strength from knowing where it is hidden and my choice in not using it.
I also have to thank the lovely members of this site whom have offered their kind words of encouragement when I've posted forums - mostly when I was struggling. Any good words and thoughts and hugs that were offered to me really made a difference.
Every day brings a new challenge and a new blessing. I feel that it takes just a little bit less effort to find the blessings now. As a friend of mine said to me last night: 'Congratulations, keep it up'. I will now say that to myself as I go to bed every night.
Blessings to all, and thank you for reading.
Heksie
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It is better to live your own destiny imperfectly than to live an imitation of somebody else's life with perfection
- The Bhagavad Gita
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13-09-2011, 11:20 PM
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I'm not worth the air I breathe
Join Date: Dec 2010
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That's wonderful :) It sounds like you've come a long way in the past year. It's great you've had so much support from your friends and whatnot, to help motivate you during you struggles. You're doing an amazing job- keep it up *hugs*
Congrats :)
Last edited by lonely_hope : 13-09-2011 at 11:20 PM.
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"God take me, because I hate me" -Underoath
We are male and female. We are artists, athletes, and students. We have depression, PTSD, eating disorders, bipolar disorder, or maybe no diagnosis at all. Some of us were abused, some not. We come from all walks of life and can be any age. We are every race or religion that you can think of. Our common link is this: We are in pain. We self-injure. And we are not freaks.
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14-09-2011, 12:12 AM
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Join Date: Sep 2011
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That's so helpful to know that things are possible when you really focus and i love it hear stories like this because it just encourages me to keep going, and i definately think thats what everybody here needs to hear, thanks for posting and a massssivvee well done :) x x x
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14-09-2011, 09:03 AM
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Join Date: Mar 2011
Location: London
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Thank you both for your encouragement.
Take care
H
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It is better to live your own destiny imperfectly than to live an imitation of somebody else's life with perfection
- The Bhagavad Gita
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