I don't know how to save my Relatioship , My First one ever , I truly Love Her , She is still in contact with her other Boyfriend according to a post on FB by her room mate who was tired of listening to their conversation at 5.20am their time .
Tomorrow I am freaked out about my Benefits Medical plus it will be the 9 month anniversary of our engagement .
I . Don't . Know . What . To . Think :(
I'm still not comfortable in my skin and the anasthetic's slowly wearing thin - Otep
Everyones lost but me! - Indiana Jones
It's okay , they know me here .
Kahlia1981 is my adopted little sister :)
''Courage doesn't always roar , sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow"
Just having a lot of flashbacks and feeling like I need to clean myself with certain products and then self harm etc. I'm trying to keep positive, I get the keys to my new place tomorrow so I need to hold it together. x
Goodo, the police have given my abusive ex his keys back after last nights incident and informed me its illegal to not let him in the property. I have a choice between sleeping on the really dodgy street in the rain or waiting to get beaten up tonight.
Attempting to go to uni for the first time this term. I changed modules after freaking out and getting sent home before last weeks old module. They have not managed to sort out my support person for today though so I'm by myself and I won't know anyone and it is going to be really noisy and I feel sick even thinking about it because I'm going to be by myself and I keep freaking out and disappearing inside my head and I'm scard that will happen in the seminar. I'm scared I won't be able to keep it together for the whole two hours let alone participate and if she puts us into groups today then I might throw up. I want to take a blade for safety but then I'd be worried I would use it. Don't know what to do. Sorry.
Emma....Im so sorry youre finding this all so hard at the moment. If you can, then i would go. I really wouldnt take a blade as that may tell them you really cant cope and that could be the end of it.....if you disappear ionto yourself, then youll miss some..but thats not the end of the world ...you can catch up. As for groups, I can really understand your fear....but if i remember right youve felt like this before and coped though it was really hard...either maybe explain to your tutor or if you cant cope then leave...but try to give it a go. Its a real shame they havent been able to give you your support worker and i guess if they question why youve found today so hard you can tell them that you should be having a support worker. Things should get easier when these things are organised and i hope they dont take much longer in trying to sort this out for you ....much love xxxx
