Thankyou
yeah I'm not doing so good really but I didn't want to bump this thread other day so as not to take support off other people as i'm sure their are people in worse emotional turmoil at the moment than me I mean i'm still functioning and everything its just hard and then I saw other news on it yesterday more recent allegations that have come to light and I just want to scream at the media and people that share these things to shut the f**k up.It hits me so hard.
Yes I read the CP folder at school and it was really difficult literally I walked into school and the office lady begged me to read it that day (as she gets into trouble if she doesn't chase staff up about things.)
So I spoke to my class teacher I work with I only had to say I have to read the folder today and she understood as we'd already been over why I would find it too difficult to do the child protection courses.She was lovely supportive and said I could take it wherever I need to to read it so I took it outside the class and did get a bit teary its just all a bit much at mo you know.Anyway another member of staff saw that I wasn't myself when I'd read it so she bought a bar of chocolate into school the next day and left it in my tray for me with a note saying for you when you're having a blip chocolate is compulsory lol! so that made me feel a bit brighter that they were so kind about it bless them
People are so kind there I am v lucky to work in a school tbh cause their aren't a lot of work environments that i've found people to be as good with people who have gone through difficult things.I am feeling like I'm drowning in my emotions and everytime I see a report on news it makes me drown that little bit more
I need to get a grip and I don't know how.I've started therapy and thats all i can do i think.I am considering coming off facebook but then I have to be in there for dance rehearsal purposes (we have our own secret group where the videos go up) so if i come off I can't see recent posts sigh
Anyway I thank you for all your support I am very grateful and I'm glad their are people that get what I mean thanks guys
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