Hi there,
I can relate to your post a lot. I suffered a similar experience with pneumonia and septic shock a couple of years ago, and have had panic attacks because I've had pain in my chest and I associate pain in my chest with that horrible situation. I get chest infections a lot because of it now and that doesn't help one bit.
As Accidentally Abstract asked, have you or are you receiving any help for how you're feeling? It sounds like you went through a very traumatic experience and it's ok to accept that it has had an effect on you. Perhaps you could look into speaking to someone about controlling these panics and dealing with the associations you have with this period in your life.
Personally, I've found that when I feel a pain/a triggering situation that makes me think of that awful time I go somewhere quiet and concentrate on my breathing to make sure it's nice and slow and calm. I take as much time as I need and try to focus my thoughts on logical things rather than emotional things. It sounds silly, but rather than going into a repetitive cycle of "omg it hurts, omg what am I going to do, I'm scared, I hate this" etc etc. I focus my thoughts on listing things that are true and right like "I live in Scotland, I am 24 years old, I am a girl, today is Monday." I find that if I focus on things that are true and not frightening or emotional I tend to calm down quicker. It's an idea maybe.
I hope you're doing ok.
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