Not enough...

[one_step_closer]

I guess a lot of us leave the preparations to the very last minute. Is there anything practical you can do?

I think I know what you mean about self soothing, it does feel quite weird. But it's important that you look after yourself especially if you don't feel able to reach out to other people for support.

[nonperson]

Not really. Just need to get used to a new routine, new work day and not seeing my friend so often.

I know. I do try to recognise when I need a quiet day without thinking I'm just being lazy.

[one_step_closer]

Of course it will take time to get used to the changes, try to be patient with yourself and if you can think of any safe things that would make adjusting to the changes easier than please do those things if you can. How are you this evening?

[nonperson]

Things would still be rubbish without the changes though.

I'm really tired tonight.. and a bit overwhelmed with life. x.x

I wish I had energy to do something, to feel any other way.

[one_step_closer]

I know that life is overwhelming and often difficult no matter what is going on. What things do you feel good about in your life? It sounds like you're really low, and of course that can have an impact on your energy which then feeds the low mood further. It can be hard to get out of that but not impossible. Are there things you think you need in your life that are missing?

[nonperson]

I dunno, my life is pretty nothing. I have a nice house and job?

I don't know what I need from life. I've never been a needy person with goals and things I want to accomplish, I used to just go with the flow and be ok with whatever happened but the trouble is that now nothing feels ok but I don't know what I need to fix that... other than being an entirely different person.

[one_step_closer]

Sorry for the mega late reply. How are you doing? Was something different when you used to be able to go with the flow and feel ok about it? Maybe now your ideas about what you want from life have changed, even if you're not sure what they are, it could be just that some things in your life right now aren't satisfying you. Or has your mood changed? Even simply getting older often leads to life questions as I'm sure you have experienced.

[nonperson]

That's ok. What was different? Probably that I was just young and sheltered from the pressures of the real world... and my mood has changed as a result? But maybe the not caring attitude meant something was wrong back then too.

So many things happen as you're growing up (school and friends and sports and holidays) and time just seems to go on forever... and now everything is just nothing.

Things just seem harder the older I get.

[one_step_closer]

I know what you mean about things becoming nothing as you get older. Are there small things you might like to do or could add to your life to at least have things to kind of look forward to/times where your routine is different? Are there any people in your life who are older than you who you could look to as a sort of role model or ask for their experiences and advice?

[nonperson]

I dunno, I do have things to look forward to. Getting out of my routine is normally a good thing though, but can sometimes end in me crashing mood-wise afterwards.

I don't have anyone other than my parents and I do ask them for advice for some things (like recent car buying stuff) but mostly just muddle on through myself. I am quite savvy with general life stuff (although it can cause all sorts of minor breakdowns sometimes I can usually do it) so don't often need to ask for advice... It's just everything else that I fail at. =/

[one_step_closer]

What is the 'everything else' that you think you fail at? It's hard to be an adult, being expected to go through things on your own as much as possible and trying to sort out your life to be how you want it to be.

[nonperson]

Mega slow reply, sorry. Just all the things that is expected of a person to do with their life, that's what I fail at.

[one_step_closer]

You don't seem like a failure to me, but I understand the feeling. There can feel like too many expectations but you don't really need to meet them all.