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Hi there
Hello,
Thank you for this forum.
It's not easy to introduce myself... I'm quite shy and English is not my first language.
Well, I am a woman, 36 years old. I am European.
I read a lot, I wrote a couple of books that have been published.
I love to travel, I went to the US, Canada, Russia, China, Mongolia and all over Europe. I travel a lot by foot.
I love to take pictures and to work on them. I am still learning how to, though...
I watch a lot of movies.
I am not very sporty but I like to ride my bicycle.
I used to self harm when I was a teenager until I was in my middle twenties. I have seen a psychologist and went better with time.
This month, I am moving out of my home because my boyfriend and I are separating. I thought it would be ok because we are talking about it since a long time and we are not angry at each others.
I am a teacher. I chose to be a locum teacher. I go to primary schools when somebody is sick or pregnant or in training to replace him or her.
I teach kids from two to twelve years old. But sometimes they send me in a special school with teenagers with special needs from twelve to eighteen. It's a kind of a youth educational detention center and it very hard for me to work at this place with these pupils.
I feel useless and unqualified, unskilled, incompetent...
Last time I worked at this place, I had a lot of problems with a specific class and with one pupil i, particular.
It made me feel really bad and useless.
I hurt myself and moreover I burnt the name of this pupil on my leg. At the time, it made me feel better but about one hour after, I realised what I made. I then felt really bad...
I tend to my wound but it became infected and I got scared. I waited way too long before I found the guts to show it to my doctor. He wasn't very nice with me and said a lot of bad things...
Now, I have a nurse coming home to tend to my wound every evening. It's not always the same and I feel terrible everytime I have to explain what it is.
Thank you for reading me, I needed to express myself !
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