That hangs round your neck
Because it won't ever remember
What you choose to forget
As you try to find some source of light
Try to name one thing you like
You used to have such a longer list
And light, you never had to look for it
But now it's so easy to second guess everything you do
Until all you want is to finish this half empty glass
Before the ice melts away
This feeling always used to pass
But seems like it's every day
Seems like it's every night now
Half Psychotic Sick Hypnotic We sat and waited for the sea
To stretch out so that we could disappear
Into the endlessness of blue Into the horror of the truth We are far less than we knew
I had the notion that you'd make me change my ways My bad habits would be gone in a matter of days I had the feeling that you'd open up my eyes
To a whole new world that had since been in disguise
But that day will most likely never come for me And it's just my luck to end up getting stuck
To everything you are
So tonight I'll sit and pick apart your pictures
And overanalyze your words But the truth is that I've never fallen so hard It's taking everything in me
Just to forget your sweater so far
I had the notion that you'd make me forget the world
But your undecisive mind shows me that
You are "just another girl" I had the feeling that those looks you gave me were real
What if I ripped your heart apart at the seams
Maybe then you'd know how I feel
But that day will most likely never come for me And it's just my luck to end up getting stuck
To everything you are
I can honestly say
That I never, ever, ever felt this way
Your lips, your eyelashes, your skin
These are the parts of your body That cause my comatose to begin
I will sleep another day
I don't really need to anyway What's the point when my dreams are infected
With words you used to say I will breathe in a moment
As long as I keep my distance I wouldn't want to go messing anything up
So don't go worrying about me
It's not like I think about you constantly
So maybe I do, but that shouldn't affect
Your life anymore
I knew it the moment you walked into the door
"Be nice. Think happy thoughts. Champion silver linings. Love all things (not just cute things like babies and kittens) & when you do love - love like they do in power ballads (you know like on a cliff with the wind in your hair and your eyes shut, knowing you'll never know love like this). Watch out for dog poo. Smile at people - even grumpy ones. Remember anything is possible & whatever you do always try to look on the bright side."
I do not wanna be afraid
I do not wanna die inside just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I find it when
I am cut
I may seem crazy
or painfully shy
Amd these scars wouldn't be so hidden if you would just look me in the eye
I feel alone here and cold here
No I don't wanna die
Half Psychotic Sick Hypnotic We sat and waited for the sea
To stretch out so that we could disappear
Into the endlessness of blue Into the horror of the truth We are far less than we knew
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
Theres always one reason
To feel not good enough
And its hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Let me be empty
And weightless and maybe
Ill find some peace tonight
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
I never knew
I never knew that everything was falling through
That everyone I knew was waiting on a queue
To turn and run when all I needed was the truth But that's how it's got to be It's coming down to nothing more than apathy I'd rather run the other way than stay and see
The smoke and who's still standing when it clears
Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind
Let's rearrange I wish you were a stranger I could disengage Just say that we agree and then never change
Soften a bit until we all just get along
But that's disregard Find another friend and you discard As you lose the argument in a cable car
Hanging above as the canyon comes between
Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind
Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind
And suddenly I become a part of your past I'm becoming the part that don't last I'm losing you and its effortless
Without a sound we lose sight of the ground In the throw around
Never thought that you wanted to bring it down
I won't let it go down till we torch it ourselves
And everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind
Everyone knows
She's on your mind
Everyone knows I'm in over my head
I'm in over my head
I'm in over...
Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind
I roll over and hold on tightly, and whisper "If they want you, they're gonna have to fight me,"
We all have responsibilities,
We all have a social debt,
And if there is a man free of guilt,
I haven't met him yet,
So now you're backed in a corner,
You're under verbal attack,
They're pointing fingers like guns in your face and...,
Nobody got your back,
You've got to blame somebody for all your ****ing mistakes,
So someone else will pay for all the bad choices you make,
And you should take responsibility for what you do,
But you just point your finger at somebody innocent and say...,
No I don't feel so ****ing good,
No I don't feel so ****ing good,
No I don't feel so ****ing good,
No I don't, I need SOMEBODY TO BLAME,
GOT BLAME?,
I GOT BLAME,
I got blame,
So one day somebody asks you how you feel, And instead of telling the truth,
You reel off a list of things you think they want to hear, Because it's easier that way,
And so they treat you like this completely different person,
Because all they know about you is misinformation,
And you gradually detatch yourself from all your actions thinking...,
OH, I DON'T KNOW WHY I DON'T MEAN WHAT I SAY,
I DON'T KNOW WHY I DON'T FEEL WHAT I SAY,
YOU'VE BEEN LYING ABOUT YOUR FEELINGS FOR SO LONG,
YOU'VE FORGOTTEN WHO YOU ARE,
You got to blame somebody for all your ****ing mistakes,
So someone else will pay for all the bad choices you make,
And it is all your fault that you feel angry like you do,
But you could not admit it and you're stuck thinking...,
No I don't feel so ****ing good,
No I don't feel so ****ing good,
No I don't feel so ****ing good,
No I don't, I need somebody,
No I don't feel so ****ing...,
No I don't feel so ****ing...,
No I don't feel so ****ing good,
No I don't, I need somebody to blame,
ARRGGGHHHH...,
YEAH, BLAME
I roll over and hold on tightly, and whisper "If they want you, they're gonna have to fight me,"
It's nice to know that you were there Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done
----------------------------
If I could read your mind,
Girl would I find any trace of me at all?
If I could be your superman, I'd fly you to the stars and back again.
Cuz everytime you touch my hand,
You feel my powers runnin through your veins.
But I can only write this song,
And tell you that I'm not that strong.
Cuz I'm no superman, I hope you like me as I am
The only time you will find real light is when you're searching in the dark..
What if i wanted to break
Laugh it all off in your face
What would you do
What if I fell to the floor
Couldn't take this anymore
What would you do
Come break me down
Bury me bury me
I am finished with you
What if I wanted to fight
Beg for the rest of my life
What would you do
You say you wanted more
what are you waiting for
I'm not running from you
Come break me down
Bury me bury me
I am finished with you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me killing me
All I wanted was you
I tried to be someone else
but nothing seemed to change
I know now This is who I really am inside
Finally found myself
Fighting for a chance
I know now, this is who I really am
Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you
If I fall along the way
Pick me up and dust me off
And if I get too tired to make it
Be my breath so I can walk
If I need some other love
Give me more than I can stand
And when my smile gets old and faded
Wait around I'll smile again
Shouldn't be so complicated
Just hold me and then
Just hold me again
Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together
You're breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent
If I couldn't sleep could you sleep
Could you paint me better off
Could you sympathize with my needs
I know you think I need a lot
I started out clean but I'm jaded
Just phoning it in
Just breaking the skin
Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together
You're breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent
Start bending me
It's never enough
I feel all your pieces
Start bending me
Keep bending me until I'm completely broken in
Shouldn't be so complicated
Just touch me and then
Just touch me again
Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together
You're breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent
Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together
You're breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent
"...that incremental suicide of turning your life into a dream, to make being awake as similar to sleep as possible. Drowsily, lazily, dry-mouth your way through the day's ceremonies, fumble your way back into the dew-bather you never really left, draped in brown, brown now all around, the haze!" - Russell Brand on drug addiction.
"Si ma êkh gûndo piyiamásko...ándo bírto barruno. Bírto, bírto barruno."
From underneath the trees, we watch the sky
Confusing stars for satellites
I never dreamed that you'd be mine
But here we are, we're here tonight
Singing, amen, I ... I'm alive
Singing, amen, I ... I'm alive
[Chorus:]
If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
We'll see the day when nobody died
Im singin'mey
Amen, I ... Amen, I ... I'm alive
Amen, I ... Amen, I ... Amen, I ... I'm alive
And in the air the fire flies
Our only light in paradise
We'll show the world they were wrong
And teach them all to sing along
Singing amen, I ... I'm alive
Singing amen, I ... I'm alive
[Chorus x2]
And as we lie beneath the stars
We realize how small we are
If they could love like you and me
Imagine what the world could be
[Chorus x2]
We'll see the day, we'll see the day
When nobody die
We'll see the day, we'll see the day
When nobody die
We'll see the day when nobody die
{CDT&CLT forever- December 9th 2011}
RYL Family: crazykat is my stalker, trailsofpain is my guard dog, tonightXweXfall is my psycho mouse, Red is my irkin invader, Mechangel is my muffin thief, rageagainstthemachine is my beloved sister, DeadIrishD is my banana cream pie, scaredofme is my cheesecake of perpetual lovelyness, binkydonkey is my pie
This feeling never leaves you alone
You pull the trigger on your own
You're hiding in your safe place
Hiding with your eyes shut tightly
all the way to the hospital
Now will you ever rest your head
You end up feeling mostly dead
Pretending you're the last one
Hiding with your eyes shut tightly
all the way to the hospital
Before I cross my heart and hope to die at all
Take off my mask and leave the lies to the liars
It never used to hurt before it isn't funny anymore
Feeling so alone now,
Funny how you wish some way that you could die at the hospital
You're quiet on the car ride home,
You're waiting for your head to explode
You're hiding in your safe place
Hiding with your eyes shut tightly
all the way to the hospital
Before I cross my heart and hope to die at all
Take off my mask and leave the lies to the liars
Before I close my eyes I'm gonna give it up
Take off my mask and leave the lies to the liars
Will you look them in the face
Could you look me in the face
Three cheers, you fooled them all
Come on, Hip Hip Hooray
Three cheers, you fooled them all
Come on, Hip Hip Hooray
Hip Hip Hooray
Before I cross my heart and hope to die at all
Take off my mask and leave the lies to the liars
Before I close my eyes I'm gonna give it up
Take off my mask and leave the lies to the liars
Leave the lies to the liars
Leave the lies to the liars
The only time you will find real light is when you're searching in the dark..
Let me be the one who calls you baby
All the time
Surely you can take some comfort
Knowing that you're mine
Just hold me tight, lay by my side
and let me be the one who calls you
Baby all the time
I found my place in the world
Could stare at your face for the rest of
my days
Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
and Smother me
Warm and alive I'm all over you
would you smother me?
Let me be the one who never leaves
You all alone
I hold my breath and lose the feeling
That I'm on my own (leaves me all alone)
Hold me too tight stay by my side
and let me be the one who calls you
Baby all the time(all the time)
I found my place in the world
Could stare at your face for the rest of
[Smother Me lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]
my days
Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
and Smother me
Warm and alive I'm all over you
would you smother me?(4X- smother me)
When I'm alone time goes so slow
I need you here with me
and how my mistakes have made
Your heart break
Still I need you here with me
So Baby I’m, Baby I'm here
Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
and Smother me(smother me)
Warm and alive I'm all over you
would you smother me?(don’t let me be alone)
Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
and Smother me(smother me)
Warm and alive I'm all over you
would you smother me?(3X smother me)
Let me be the one who calls you baby
All the time
Let me be the one who calls you baby
All the time
Let me be the one who calls you baby
the one who calls you baby.
The only time you will find real light is when you're searching in the dark..
They've clipped my wings again,
Tore them apart and then, left me
No use to fly away to my yesterday, of freedom
My eyes died back that day,
Seeing the hurt I may have done
Beat me instead of them,
Pain is my only zen, of fun.
I'll go where secrets are sold
Where roses unfold
I'll sleep as time goes by.
So hurting here is where I belong, dreaming a song
Blood on my hands to stay strong
The flowers in the graveyard are all gone, I don't belong
There is no right to heal the wrong,
Soup's on hot feelin' like a do or die,
I can't throw up, I don't think I even wanna try.
You still can't make me cry,
You've pinned this butterfly down
My fire's burning out,
Kill my flame without a frown
And starving hurts the soul,
When you're hungry for, some love
So if I close my eyes
I can really fly, above .
So hurting here is where I belong, dreaming a song
Blood on my hands to stay strong
The flowers in the graveyard are all gone, I don't belong
There is no right to heal the wrong,
Soup's on hot feelin' like a do or die,
I can't throw up, I don't think I even wanna try... try....
....life it seems to fade away,
drifting farther everyday.
Getting lost within myslef,
nothing matters, no one else
I have lost the will to to live,
simply nothing more to give.
There is nothing more for me,
need the end to set me free....
When you were here before
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
And I wish I was special
You're so ****in' special
But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
"When I was a little kid, my mother told me not to stare into the sun, so when I was six I did..."
