I was just thinking-I always was doing something to hurt myself-maybe not as obviously as cutting, when I was a babe I used to hold my breath til I was blue.
And I was always doing things like-making myself sick via eating salt & grabbing nettles and thorns. Maybe to show I was hardcore. Hardcore!
i see where ur comin from ...! i aint done most the things u describe ...! but i have grabbed thorns n nettles and often hold me breath till i pass out ...! i have even made me sel sick onmany occasions ...! punched walls till me knuckles are f****d ...! but self harm was the main issue 4 me ...! i am now 2 weeks free of everything and well even though it defeats the object a lil i still pick me old wounds at times when things are to bad to bare ...! nut its better than makin new wounds ...! as 4 the drugs i cant say i have done many ... exept the odd smoke of weed but thats it ....! but i am clear at the mo n allthough things are hard i still manage to pull thru on the right side well so far anyway ..! (touch wood )
hope that answers ya question hun take care ... and be strong
as a kid i tried to break my wrists, then i started scratching myself cos i was scared 2 cut any deeper then it was smoking, then i started fully fledged self harm cutting throwing up etc... now i also drink a lot and experiment with drugs sometimes to the extreme but every1 thinks im just a druggy but no1 understands that it blocks everything your feeling out and makes you a happier person for others 2 be around cos you have no emotions
Well I've never really had problems with anything other than SI and ED's but, yeah, they tend to progress. Like when I was around 8, they were mild scratches that barely broke the skin. Around 11 or 12 I'd gone into cutting. And as time went by, cutting wasn't enough anymore, so I started cutting deeper, causing large 2nd degree burns, and intentionally broke two fingers on my left hand. Now its almost scary, not knowing what I'm actually capable of doing. If something stops working, I take it to the next level. Pretty soon I'm going to run out of levels.
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Yes. When i used to argue with my mum when i was little i used to smack myself. I did the whole smoking thing too young. Next i started self harming which has got worse over the years. I started purging when i was about 14 which has got worse over time. Alcohol.
I do count myself as a very destructive person. I have to be doing something that isn't good for me and half the time i don't even realise that the reason i do it is to hurt myself.
I didnt realize it until recently but when I was younger I used to bite my arms until I drew blood. It was like a competition for me. I grew out of that but soon after I was taking small od's and then I went to cutting.
My s-injury progressed. I started when i was about 10 years old...i just grabbed a pin and dragged it up and down my arm really fast, many times...Then i "forgot" about it for a few years, and then started to cut. My first cuts were "light" or superficial. Then my s-injury progressed again.
As time went on, i began to s-injure more and more severely. Now im at the stage where when i cut, i almost always make a gaping wound, from 0.5-1cm deep....not TOO deep to really require stitches, like into muscle or anything...just deep enough to get well and truly into the fat.
SO yeah...my self-injury has definatley increased or progressed over the years, without a doubt.
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Mine's a bit different, but looking back I'd push myself really hard in sports and not care what it was doing to my body. I kept playing ultimate frisbee on a sprained ankle (2-3 games maybe) until the season was over since it was the playoffs. It took 4-5 months for it to fully heal and not have pain in certain situations. I've observed things like that countless times. In other people it may just be seen as an athlete pushing himself, but in me, I can tell it's partly self-destructive and me just not caring if I get injured.
Yeah I'm like that.
When I was really little I used to bite myself or hit myself when I got upset or angry.
A bit older and I was still hitting myself but then hitting walls and solid objects as well and pulling hair out.
Then the cutting progression. Started as scratches (not sure what age), then the superficial cuts that barely bled and never left scars (14 ish), then a bit deeper and now at the point where I have some pretty decent looking scars. Although I'm trying to stop before I have to start going to the hospital to get stitched up.
I still punch things though.
And with my eating I used to stop eating for a day when I got mad or upset, so maybe mine progressed from there.
As for other self destruction, I drink more often than I should and when I drink I won't stop until I'm hammered. I know about the health effects and stuff but I don't care. I guess that counts.
kinda, self harm is just one aspect of my self destructive behaviour, I didnt deal with it when i was trying to recocer from sh and just replaced it with an ed.
For some reason i burst with laughter after reading ur thread ,It's not funny but uh ,I have been doing this also since i was a baby
My mum and my grandma used to hide the salt and put it away from me used to think that i can dry my blood hahaha i'm so silly
after that when i was about 5 as i remember i started pulling out my hair still do and when anyone sees me like this they know that i'm stressed ,i shake my legs quite a lot till they hurt ,before a year or a bit more i started cutting .The thing is that i think the same way as u do , i tell myself damn it now what drugs?
I don't sleep till it's 3 i don't eat well it's been ages since i last ate well uh crappy me!
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As a kid I guess I took part in some self destructive behaviour, ingesting corrosive materials - battery acid and things - along with biting (which I always did, I remember that most) and picking at wounds (though, I never saw much harm in that).
As I grew up I started to choke and hit myself, along with more self destructive behaviour like before. Then I began to move on to SH as I got a bit older, but for the most part still do a lot of the stuff I did growing up.
So, I suppose there was a progression in my SH as I grew up.
If you read my post you'l know that's exactly what happened to me, i self harmed unconciously since i was a little boy, and then it progressed to cutting and i've finally realised i AM self harming, it's weird. :(
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Well I think I may be a little different.. Hmmm, I was always a self-destructive kid I think but I dont think I was more than many others. I used to bang my head and pull my hair out and pinch myself till I bled etc.
But when I was 16 I took a small OD hoping to die, I didnt and I was fine and I couldnt find very much but I never told anyone anyway. Then a few weeks later I overdosed VERY BAD and was in hosp for 3 weeks till they transferred me to a adolescent unit. There is where I started SHing tbh, but when I was in the kids ward for the three weeks I tried to find scissors to slash my wrists with.. They didnt have any, damn them! Also in the childrens ward and before as well, actually through much of my teen years I would restrict and loose weight. I came to the unit very very underweight and they also forced me to eat and wouldnt let me outside if I didnt.
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