I'm vegetarian and all my alters are vegetarian, too. Except one of the little ones. She always wanted to eat fish sticks but I refused them to her. Today she was on the outside during lunch break and she bought fish and chips and ate them.
It feels so wrong knowing that there is meat inside our body.
Does anyone of you have this same problem?
You survived the abuse.
You're gonna survive the recovery.
Got escorted home leave today. My doc has said we're never allowed a male to be on our obs because of various alters having an extreme dislike of men but they're short staffed today so have to go with 1 male and 1 female despite what the doc has said (which I'm guessing staff in charge will get in **** for).
I'm leaving in 20 minutes and I am worried about dissociating and M or M ''kicking off'' at male staff. Especially with being in the car and stuff (that could be dangerous :s) But I just really want to go home. My neice is almost 2 weeks old and I've only met her once and I really want her to know me :(
Praying I can put some of my therapy into practice and stay in control.
Can people just cross fingers or something???
I didn't read all replies.. Im low as right now but on a good note. PTSD trauma from a younger age was a massive part of my future failed life. I found EMDR brain spotting. Seriously worth looking up. Don't do the stupid at home youtube videos, go see a pro. It will change your life
hi everyone, I was told by my psych on Friday that she thinks I have some form of dissociative disorder. I do get episodes where it is like y mind just switches off, but my body continues doing stuff, but I don't remember it at all. I have self harmed and OD'd while in this state a few times. I just got out of a 5 day hospital admission on a section and the psych there thinks the dissociating might be linked to the fact that I highly likely have Asperger's, but no one seems that sure at the moment and they keep disagreeing about diagnosis.
Hope it is ok to join this thread
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'When words fail, music speaks'
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Hello stranger, if I can join, and I know you very well on another thread, of course its ok to join us! I also have problems with dissociating and then self harming which can be quite scary when you come round and see what you have done. Glad you're out of hospital now and hope you're safe at home. I hope they agree on a diagnosis soon - it often makes things easier to process. *hugs*
GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE
THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN
AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE
thank you :) Yeah I wish they would agree on a diagnosis too, won't get the Asperger's diagnosis until I see the specialist in Sheffield for a proper long assessment.
Yeah it is very scary, when you come round and realise what you have done. I also seem to ride my bike a lot when I dissociate, I will arrive somewhere, no idea how realise I have my helmet, so guessing I rode, but no memory of cycling or locking my bike up or anything, it is quite scary.
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
Oliver! Hi there, I know you. And yes... of yours you can join us here. It must be really scary for you when you are coming back from dissociation and then you have to deal with the mess.
It happened to me only once or twice that I came round and someone has SHed and I had to deal with the mess. That was NOT cool.
On wednesday, my therapist said that I am a multiple personality. I have suspected this for more than a year, but wasn't sure and my therapist wasn't sure. But now he is sure and I have a diagnosis.
It's kind of scary to have the diagnosis but at least things are making more sense now.
You survived the abuse.
You're gonna survive the recovery.
Thank you Laura. I seemed to have hurt myself again last night at some point, but no memory of doing it or anything, just suddenly noticed.
I was confused when my psych first mentioned dissociation last week as I thought it was just multiple personalities, but having now read about it, I realise that is only one part of it and there are other forms of dissociation too.
I'm glad things are making more sense for you now that you have the diagnosis, but yeah still scary.
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
In my opinion it is the 'most complete' form of dissociation when someone else does something while you are dissociated/not there. I dunno how to word what I mean... hope it makes sense to you.
You survived the abuse.
You're gonna survive the recovery.
There are many forms of dissociation all of which are scary and can be confusing. There isn't one worse than another because it depends how badly/ severely you suffer from the form you have
GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE
THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN
AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE
sorry if that came across a bit wrongly.
I just don't know how to express what I am thinking. Hope that didn't come across in a way as if some forms of dissociation are worse than others. Especially since I feel that dissociating my body away and not being able to move feels much worse than one of my alters being on the outside.
You survived the abuse.
You're gonna survive the recovery.
