It's brilliant to hear that you are looking to begin to stop cutting, that is a massive step and you should be really proud of yourself for making this decision. It will be one of the best decisions you ever make when you are recovered :)
It must be very difficult over the summer holidays without the support of your teacher who you have come to know and trust. It also seems a very long time to wait for CAMHS so I'm sorry there is so little support for you. Is your Mam supportive towards you about the self harming? Maybe you could talk to her about how difficult things are for you and see if you can see your GP so you can at least have some extra support?
The Self Harm Information Package
might be helpful for you to read through. It includes information about preparing to stop self harming, distraction techniques (it is a great list!), making yourself a safety box and also lots of different useful contacts.
You are also welcome to post on RYL anytime or if you don't feel comfortable posting on the forums, you can e-mail the supporters at firstname.lastname@example.org
- the supporters aim to reply to all e-mails within 24 hours.
For me, when I started to breakaway from cutting myself, I found it really helpful to make myself an inspiration board. I found quotes online or through people that I knew that were inspiring to me. I also put all my goals, my hopes and dreams etc, reasons to quit self harm, pictures that made me think (such as of my little cousins) and I also included on the board a distraction list. This was great for me because it meant when the urges were great there was something easy to visualise.
I also find the 'Moving Forward' section of the forums really helpful on bad days.
We are here for you. Take care honey,