5 MONTHS FREE!
Just wanted to share the good news! I haven't self harmed since February! It was hard the first few months, but it gets easier every single day. Still battling urges, but now maybe twice a month versus every single day! Nothing at all compared to how difficult it was before.
I love being able to wear little to no bracelets, not being self conscious of my cuts, not waking up feeling guilty, not screaming hysterically, not hating myself for hating myself and hurting myself, not having to lock myself up for hours, not feeling pathetic... the list goes on.
I'm happy I made the choice between the blade and myself. I'm happy I picked me.
The only downfall is the large amount of scarring on my thighs, but even those are a silver lining, a little piece to remind me of what I've been through and of course of why I shouldn't go back. I hope most of them will be gone, using lots of vitamin E!
Thanks for everyones help on here! I'm happy that now I might be able to give back and help some people too!
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