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Old 14-08-2019, 09:09 PM   #701
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It does seem a long time, but it's not so long really. Do you have crisis numbers in the meantime?

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Old 15-08-2019, 01:53 PM   #702
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Can you think of anything safe that might help you get through to the 29th?





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Old 15-08-2019, 04:33 PM   #703
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I've just moved so don't know any crisis numbers.

I went to minor injuries this morning and the nurse put me back together. I nearly fainted though which was embarrassing. And I'm extremely sore still from it.



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Old 15-08-2019, 06:03 PM   #704
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Are national helplines of any use?

I'm glad you went for treatment, I'm sorry you're not feeling good. Did the nurse not want you to speak to a psych person when you were there?





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Old 15-08-2019, 10:08 PM   #705
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No it was a very small minor injuries unit in a community hospital. I don't think they even have psyche.



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Old 16-08-2019, 02:18 PM   #706
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Oh right. How are things today?





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Old 19-08-2019, 10:05 PM   #707
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My leg is now horrifically infected. Managed to sort some antibiotics for it today. The man is saying that it'd be best if I didn't take them, get sepsis and die.

I'm trying so hard to keep distracting. But everything is getting too much.



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Old 20-08-2019, 08:00 AM   #708
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It sounds like it would be best if you did take the antibiotics. You're doing so well to keep fighting <3 It doesn't seem like the man is making helpful suggestions at all.





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Old 20-08-2019, 02:33 PM   #709
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Getting sepsis would be really awful, I don't think anyone could ever say that would be for the best and for it to be the truth. Please keep taking the antibiotics and doing what you can to look after yourself. I'm sorry that the man isn't making it easy for you to see that you are a worthwhile person.





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Old 21-08-2019, 02:23 AM   #710
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The man session the truth. He is punishing me for taking the antibiotics. He is also telling me to hang myself. I got close tonight. There's no way I can live like this. I'm talking to my mum. She knows things are not good. I messaged my friend. She is fed up with me. Binged and purged. Want to cut to appease the man. I have a busy day tomorrow and my body is exhausted. And I cant sleep properly. The messages keep waking me up.



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Old 21-08-2019, 10:06 AM   #711
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Gentle hugs,please fight the man, he's not real. You deserve so much more than this.



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Old 21-08-2019, 11:01 AM   #712
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Why do you feel like the man speaks the truth and must be listened to? There are so many more people who would say the opposite to him and would be more credible. Were you honest with your Mum? Please keep talking to her if it helps. I hope you get through your day ok.





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Old 23-08-2019, 07:57 AM   #713
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My mum doesn't know I'm suicidal.

Because the man speaks the truth. It's as clear as day. The messages make sense and link up. I'm too tired to fight.



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Old 23-08-2019, 11:12 AM   #714
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Anything can seem to make sense, if you look for connections. Do things that other people say not make sense? Would you speak to your Mum about feeling suicidal? Or is it still helpful to talk to her even if she doesn't know just how hard things are?





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Old 24-08-2019, 10:06 PM   #715
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The thing above about reinforcing connections/bias is very true. It's something that I just wrote about on someone else's thread and that my therapist works with me on a lot.

Basically we're much more likely to put a lot of value in the one or few ideas that reinforce our pre-existing beliefs than we are to look for or acknowledge evidence that disproves them.

So you have evidence from the man that things are connected.
Is there any evidence that those things might just be coincidental, or might go against what the man says, no matter how small or seemingly insignificant to you?

How are you doing this weekend?



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Old 25-08-2019, 10:25 AM   #716
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I'm lonely and trying so hard not to burn. The man wants me to burn. Cutting isn't bad enough.

But he is real thus what he says is true. I can't look for reasons not to believe him because then people are at risk. Why should I put people at risk?

I just want to be happier or less sad. I just want to live without wanting to die.

I am trying hard. I managed to make scrambled egg this morning. And have laundry on and put laundry away. And I even cooked a big chile con carne for the week and to give to mum and her partner. They are away for the weekend so I want them to have a dinner to get in to on monday. But I don't know what to do for the rest of the day. And I feel guilty for spending money yesterday that I don't have.



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Old 25-08-2019, 11:16 AM   #717
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A lot of things real people say aren't true though! So just because he's real doesn't mean he IS speaking the truth.

You shouldn't put yourself at risk either though.

I can tell you're trying so hard and you're doing so well with that. Things will get better.

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Old 25-08-2019, 11:46 AM   #718
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He has made bertie hate me. Bertie was always the only one that always loved me.



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Old 25-08-2019, 11:51 AM   #719
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Bertie still loves you, that won't ever change!

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Old 25-08-2019, 12:16 PM   #720
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When I'm unwell I hear the Man. He sounds quite similar to your man. I believed he was real and that he was telling me the truth. But now I'm feeling better I can see that he was wrong and not real. I believe the same can happen for you.



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