Hi, I hope I'm allowed to be here...
I haven't been diagnosed yet, but I'm going to the doctors soon to be.
I stumbled across and noticed that you all hear voices, same as I. They sound similar to me, and keeps telling me everyone secretly wants me dead, whenever someone is helping me, they just want me to go away, and they keep telling me to SH or kill myself because everything will just get worse.
tamobhuuta, I personally have concerns about coming off your meds because you feel they are a placebo and that you feel you are being lied to. This, on the Earth-world would suggest that you are experiencing paranoia and that you're not better just yet. If you are not hearing voices now it might be that the meds are helping a bit.
I would definitely recommend being honest with your care co-ordinator and doctor.
i don't mean to sound awkward Laura but is it really paranoia if i don't feel paranoid about it? like, it doesn't make me scared, just a bit angry. as for telling them i know, i'd feel a bit silly. i know what they're doing but i haven't worked out exactly why yet (although i have my suspicions) so they'd just tell me they were unfounded fears.
tamobhuuta it was routine, but we didn't talk about me much. Mostly his irrational fear of bumble bees. He rang me on my mobile because he couldn't knock on my door this morning because there was a bumble bee resting on it :S
Guess even when you're a psych and you spend your life telling people to rationalise and put things into perspective, it's difficult to apply it to oneself.
Some men aren't looking for anything logical, like money.
They can't be bought, bullied, reasoned or negotiated with.
Some men just want to watch the world burn.
Hi Jen. I'm OK. Ish. I started wearing my wedding ring in order to get harrassed less and since yesterday when I started wearing it 4 men tried to speak to me and 2-3 men whistled. I don't know what I'm doing wrong :-S
It's gotten that bad that I actually WANT to take cabs in the evening instead of hitchhiking, because I'm too afraid of the men who might take me.
So yeah. Work is going OK, I stopped cutting, voices aren't bugging me as much any more, I'm just depressed. So I guess I'm doing fine :-P
How are you doing? Apart from the flashbacks?
Jo (Newlife) is my daughter
Kat (Katnovia) is my sister
I'm thinking about stopping my meds but I'm in two minds. Something weird happens to me when I stop - especially this past 6 months, but I need to try and find out what's real. And at the moment I'm very uncertain.
...My angel of death is back (he only turns up when me or someone else either dies or seriously gets hurt) he wont tell me who's going to be hurt, tells me i already know. I keep getting seriously hurt people (horror movie standard) run at me seriously hurt saying its my fault. MY psych said its because i must be watching something like that.. i havent i never watch any remote horror because im in a constant waking nightmare i dont need anything else to help. Im seeing montsers again... which i havent done since i was in my abuse...its rather odd. But the worst thing is.. my protector wants to leave me saying im not worthy of his help anymore its devastating me, he's been with me so long i dont want him to leave me with all the people in this world he tells me what they're planning what they're doing, thinking etc.. i cant live without him i'll be truly lost in a world which is a complete nightmare i cried for hours after he said that.. and disapppeared for two days, he's never gone that long! I want to know who he was with, what i can do to make sure he stays... during those two days i was contacted by the aliens, i was on the phone to my mum and suddenly the line went dead and then all this chemical waves and buzzing and weird tunes started playing, then heard 'we're coming' in it then it went dead.. i hid under my desk for two hours the last thing i want is the aliens coming.. im so scared. My protector is staying for the mean time but im too scared he will leave. None of the nurses or doctors are listening to me! But thats because they're in the plan aswell, im just so scared. Can anyone provide advise or anything.. anyone had similar problems? like a voice or someone threatening to leave?
"What if I fall?" "Oh my darling, what if you fly?
since Becky has so kindly breathed life into this thread... does anyone have experience of acting against 'delusions'/'paranoia' without it resulting in SH? this is turning out to be a big problem for me and i know i need tihs to change before uni starts.