Overwhelmed. Stressed. And badly need and want to burn again. But I cant today for reasons.
I do not think theres a way forward or a life for me.
Theres so much pressure.
I keep arranging to see people and do nice things with them and by myself. It's making no difference. I don't ow the last time I felt ok.
I've done distraction, I've done cleaning, I've done lists, I made my dad come over so I spent time with someone. We walked tothe pub so that's exercise. I've showered once and probably will again. I've eaten fruit. I've hydrated. I dont know what else there is.
Props for working so hard Lillie. Does getting through til 9 mean you can go to bed now and snuggle up with Bertie or do you still have some time you need to get through?
You cannot get through a single day without having an impact on the world around you What you do makes a difference, and you have to decide what kind of difference you wish to make.
Have you ever confused a dream with life? Or stolen something when you have the cash? Have you ever been blue? Or thought your train moving while sitting still? Maybe I was just crazy. Maybe it was the 60's. Or maybe I was just a girl... interrupted.
I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside. I tried groups, didn't work out just made my depression a lot worse.
Have you ever confused a dream with life? Or stolen something when you have the cash? Have you ever been blue? Or thought your train moving while sitting still? Maybe I was just crazy. Maybe it was the 60's. Or maybe I was just a girl... interrupted.
I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside. I tried groups, didn't work out just made my depression a lot worse.
Hi.
Things are rough mostly.
Work is physically demanding and exhausting.
Mental health is poor.
I'm isolating on purpose because people are hard.
I'm pulled in different directions and hugely overwhelmed.
Feel incredibly harshly alone. It's better. But it hurts.
Been ill all weekend with a migraine because of work.
I dont feel seen or heard.
I am a bad friend.
I am an evil person.
Thank you so much for asking. You dont know how much that means right now <3
Thing are intense and overwhelming and unmanageable. I can cope by cutting a lot and purging a lot and just keeping going. But I'm struggling. Most of my normal avenues of support arent open or are leaning heavily on me for support instead.
It's a bad month. And dates and I will have someone staying in my house which is fine because she needs it and I want to be there for her but it means self harm will have to be done in secret and that's another pressure.
Everyone bar 2 people I've spoken to about feeling under insane pressure has dismissed it. Said I'm doing fine. And I am. I suppose.
Things sound tough and hard and even more challenging than usual.
Do you think you'd be able to set some boundaries with people who are leaning on you for support?
There's a reason they tell you to put on your own oxygen mask before helping others.
If people tell you you're doing fine maybe just directly ask them why they think that to get an idea of how to communicate that you are not fine at all.
Curveball
