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Old 18-08-2020, 07:32 PM   #1
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Feeling so...overwhelmed, overrun...defeated

I know I dont post much here anymore so people probably have no idea where my life is up to. I am overwhelmed and like I'm falling off a knife edge of coping.



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Old 18-08-2020, 11:05 PM   #2
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I'm sorry things are so difficult at the moment. Would it help to talk more about what's going on?

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Old 19-08-2020, 02:17 PM   #3
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Hey sweetheart, I to am so sorry you're struggling so much. If you want to talk more we are here.







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Old 19-08-2020, 05:49 PM   #4
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I'm sorry things are so hard for you. Can anyone reach out and get you off that knife? What do you need right now?





I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.

Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.

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Old 20-08-2020, 07:06 PM   #5
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<3 feel free to send us a PM if that feels safer



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Old 21-08-2020, 04:29 PM   #6
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yhanks for all the repplies <3 I',m just... physically and mentally falling apart. sprry if my typing is pooor eyesight one of things affected.


It feels ;ike no one hears me screaming/ even the overdose the other week was just 'behavioural] they say there' s no psyhc beds in the entire country when what they rea;;;y mean is theres no Wheelchair beds/


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Old 22-08-2020, 05:56 AM   #7
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Oh no. It isn't okay to not say there are beds just because they could not be bothered to accommodate your needs. You deserve proper care too. Are there any type of advocacy or rights organization you could contact to help fight for you?

Are you okay at home?

You deserve to get treatment and kindness just as much as anyone else.

Can we do anything to make our posts easier for you to read? Would a larger font or different color or type of spacing help?



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Old 22-08-2020, 09:53 AM   #8
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Thanks to you Auror I rang local disabiity services this morning.

Larger font size would be helpful. It's my sight and my hands thats the issue.

I don't think I cankeep myself safe tbh.



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Old 22-08-2020, 11:01 AM   #9
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I was randomly thinking about you before you posted this, wondering how you were doing. I'm sorry things aren't good. =(

Is there anyone at all you can contact today to help keep you safe if you can't do it yourself?

Also you can probably edit your font size settings on your phone and laptop to a bigger size, although I appreciate that finding the settings might be hard to find if you're struggling to see...

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Old 22-08-2020, 12:29 PM   #10
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Proud of you. Were your local disability services helpful?

Agree with nonperson, is there anyone you can tell about not being able to keep yourself safe, other than us? It was really brave to tell us, and we do care and want to help. But this might be a thing where someone in real life might be a good idea.

Let me know if this font size is okay or if you need bigger or smaller. For reference I used size 5.




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Old 23-08-2020, 03:10 AM   #11
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I near;y got 136ed but got out of it with the emntal health team. I didnt want to bullshit but I was wrried about my dog home alone as I hadn't dog proofed. I actuallly bouught the stuff to act on my thoughts todAY. The only thing that stopped me was I had a seizure-awkwared/.



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Old 23-08-2020, 05:10 PM   #12
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How was the rest of the day? Could you try and get some one to take it back? When you have something just in case it just makes you feel angry and upset or whatever, but I think as we all owl, get far away as was as the same. Hold on to your things to make such extra but do try to treat yourself. Please help people help you.





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Old 23-08-2020, 07:28 PM   #13
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I am really glad you have your dog. Is there anyone you can tell about buying the things? You shouldn't have to be alone with this.

Thinking of you and sending love.



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Old 24-08-2020, 01:37 AM   #14
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I kee[ ducking out. I get to hospital nad I get so scared I end u[ saying whatevers needed to go home/ truble ia this is going to get me in trouble with the plice cos rthey;ll thikn just taking the piss. wjen actuallly just mentLLLT ILLL



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Old 25-08-2020, 02:50 AM   #15
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I have the same trouble with being at hospital too - I just freeze up and say what they want to hear so I can go home.

How are you doing now?

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Old 05-09-2020, 07:31 PM   #16
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Thanks for asking. I feel like I
m falling apart but ni a way thats impossible to describe.



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Old 05-09-2020, 09:50 PM   #17
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Low on words but sending so much love x







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Old 06-09-2020, 05:55 PM   #18
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Old 08-09-2020, 09:23 AM   #19
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Sorry I haven't been able to keep up with your messages. I hope that things are getting better.





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Old 10-09-2020, 05:36 AM   #20
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Thanks all.

I'm so unhappy.



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