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Old 16-11-2020, 08:15 PM   #61
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I just need to let more of my blood out.
It will help if I do that



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Old 16-11-2020, 09:41 PM   #62
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Beckie, i Think somewhere inside you probably know this but letting out more blood Will not help at all. It'll make you feel very poorly and cause an awfully long admission and it'll mean a lot of the nice things (or, as nice as they get in hospital....) Will be taken away.

I know it is real to you but it only is to you. Everyone else is pretty freaked out and worried about you accidentally killing yourself. Is there someone you can talk to when he voices get loud and the impulses become strong???

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Old 16-11-2020, 10:42 PM   #63
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Thanks zurg
I really don't want to let all my blood out but it feels like the only way.

I just talked to the nurse on my 1:1 about the voices being loud. She said to come and watch TV so I have.
I was trying to sleep but I couldn't.
I'm so tired.



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Old 17-11-2020, 05:35 AM   #64
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hopefully you are able to get some sleep. also glad you were able to talk to the nurse.

if the voices lessened in intensity, do you think you might not have to act on the thoughts? hopefully that is something the humans there can help figure out a way to do.

i'm really proud of you for being honest and asking for help. i know you didn't want to be in hospital but it sounds like you are trying your best to work with them and that is really good and something to be proud of.



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Old 17-11-2020, 08:02 AM   #65
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I did get some sleep but woke up at 6am for some reason which is annoying.

Maybe. But the contamination will probably still be there even if the voices lessened.

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I am trying.

I have ward round at 10am and I'm nervous about it



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Old 17-11-2020, 10:03 AM   #66
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When the voices lessen, the contamination worries tend to lessen too though, right? That must be way nicer - not spending all day with everything in you focused on that.

I'm so sorry this is happening to you Beckie, hopefully they can help you quickly and get you home.

I'm really impressed with how you spoke to your nurse last night too - that takes a lot of guts.

Hoping ward round is productive. Will be thinking of you at 10am.



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Old 17-11-2020, 10:25 AM   #67
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It is nicer when they are quieter.

Thank you <3

I hope it actually is at 10am. 9 times out of 10 in hospital ward round is really late!
I hope not Because I'm very anxious about it



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Old 17-11-2020, 11:10 AM   #68
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I hope you have a better day today.

I was wondering why you were mostly able to stay safe at home but not you're in hospital you've self harmed? You used your own strength and the support of others at home, are you not doing that on the ward? I'm sorry if that sounds bitchy, I'm not being a bitch just wondering what helps you stay safe.

I hope ward round goes well. Do you know what you'd like from it?





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Old 17-11-2020, 11:41 AM   #69
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Have you had your ward rounds yet? I hope it goes well. And a big well done for talking to the nurse.



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Old 17-11-2020, 11:54 AM   #70
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That's not bitchy lindsay.
It's because the A&E department is in the next building. So there's more chance of being saved if I were to let all my blood out. At home I'd have to wait for an ambulance and then the 25 minute journey to hospital. So my chances of survival are much higher here.

I wanted to come off 1:1 and my section but neither of those happened.
They want to move me back to the ward I was on last time because they know me.
The consultant was very nice at least.



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Old 17-11-2020, 01:36 PM   #71
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If you're planning on saving yourself each time, maybe it's better not to cut no matter what the voices say? I'm pleased you don't want to die and you are trying to fight this way but there much be a better way to fight that isn't harmful.

How would you feel about moving to the other ward? I'm glad the consultant was nice.

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Old 17-11-2020, 02:33 PM   #72
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I just need to let the blood out. Then they can put new blood in and it will be ok.

I don't particularly want to move because then I'll have to explain everything all over again.
But I know I'll be moving no matter what.
But at least I'm far less likely to be on 1:1 in the other ward. So that's a good thing



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Old 17-11-2020, 10:35 PM   #73
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That's not how it works.

I hope moving to a ward where people know you will be beneficial. Might help cutting down the time you have to stay.



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Old 17-11-2020, 10:51 PM   #74
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How would the contamination get into your blood? And why would someone else’s blood not be contaminated? In theory contamination should be less now you’ve cut yourself, so the urge should be a bit less?





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Old 18-11-2020, 10:22 AM   #75
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I hope so Lana.
I really don't want to be in hospital. I want to go home

I don't know Emma.
I think the contamination is less but it's still not enough



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Old 18-11-2020, 12:05 PM   #76
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The consultant won't take me off the section or 1:1
Section runs out tomorrow so reviewing it again tomorrow.
He said he is flummoxed and ended with 'this is getting silly now ' which hurt quite a bit.



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Old 18-11-2020, 02:38 PM   #77
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Would PRN help?



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Old 18-11-2020, 02:40 PM   #78
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I didn't think of that. Yes it might help.
I'll go and ask for some



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Old 18-11-2020, 03:00 PM   #79
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I hope the PRN helps a little.





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Old 18-11-2020, 03:58 PM   #80
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Thanks Emma
I had some and I do feel calmer



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