Do I look like someone who would tajke drugs? Have I ever in the past?
I also have nobody to fukkin talk to coz
First of all you told me you smoked cannabis a few days ago. And tbh the second part is kinda insulting, have i not been there numerous times to talk to, going round to keep you company, txting and being on msn.
Yeah your alone, have i seriously not tried to be there or help?
"Its not how long a star shines, what is remembered is the brightness of the light"
evening everyone.
how are you all?
I can't stop thinking about Lucy she would be 19 next wednesda.
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
First of all you told me you smoked cannabis a few days ago. And tbh the second part is kinda insulting, have i not been there numerous times to talk to, going round to keep you company, txting and being on msn.
Yeah your alone, have i seriously not tried to be there or help?
A few draws of cannabis is hardly anything to write home about, I don't smoke normally and I wouldn't know where to get some weed even if I wanted to, someone was smoking some and asked me if I wanted a draw so I did, its hardly a drug habit..
And yes Mari you have been there, you have been here on msn and that and I didn't mean that against you, I am merely referring to the fact that everyone with my best friend has gone to fuk between her moving in with an ex junkie and assaulting prick and she didnt talk to me for months coz of a stupid misunderstanding
I aint referring to anyone on here when I say I am alone, everyone on here have been brilliant and every single one of you have been great and I really appreciate it
Maybe I should just stop talking coz all I seem to do is piss people off
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
***
Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
***
Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
I dunno if anyone is still online, if you are, can you maybe pm me, I needa talk to some1, maybe i will go on chat....
I just wanna say before I go any further, sent you a text Mari, just wanna re-iterate the fact that when I say nobody been there for me I dinnae mean you or anyone else on here, was mainly referrin to carri and sorry if what i said hurt you, didnae mean it that way
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
***
Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
Can I just add this randomly, Irn Bru doesn't taste anything like WKD Iron Brew...........
Its gotta be bars, if your gonna drink a pre mixed irn bru drink, it will need to be red square n IB as it uses the proper stuff, that WKD stuff is just a cheapy rip off of irn bru which is mingin........
Smirnoff and a can of Irn Bru - thats the way to go :D
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
***
Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
sorry, taking me a min to reply, im kinda just thinking, im ok it was easy, i just mentioned how the lady i asw on tuesday was recommending i go on prozac, so mum asked why and i told her its recommended in ED cases, she just said oh right i never knew that about prozac. Just got to wangle into the convo the triggers in hope they can help me avoid them, also just went to tell my boyf since i started the mission lol
just hope she doesnt start keeping an eagle eye out now
I'll tell you something- maybe i shouldn't say it..i dunno but i was put on prozac when i was about 14...it made my weight go right down- not dangerously but i was losing weight on it- that was teh only thing it did for me, i was put on it for depression, i wasn't trying to lose weight or anything, i've never suffered an ed... so yer... i hope it helps you
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Reason: spelling mistake
i suggest the book "get me out of here" by rachel reiland to everyone here...i've just (finally) finished reading it(it's taken me longer to read this book due to lack of concentration in the last couple of months)... it's a memoir on her struggle with bpd and it was really good :)
I'll tell you something- maybe i shouldn't say it..i dunno but i was put on prozac when i was about 14...it made my weight go right down- not dangerously but i was losing weight on it- that was teh only thing it did for me, i was put on it for depression, i wasn't trying to lose weight or anything, i've never suffered an ed... so yer... i hope it helps you
Its ok DannieGirl, i was on a lower dose of it in the past,
ohh oh thanks lol that book was one i was trying to think the name of when i was telling ellie :)
I'm ok, just wanting to watch tennis but its raining, so.......
Hop everyone else is okays xxx
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
***
Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
