It is a lonely time even though you're right that people are sharing a lot of similar feelings. There will of course be your own individual struggles too and that makes it extra difficult at points. What does your routine look like? I hope whatever happens with your accommodation is right for you.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
My routine is basic. Meds, eat, sleep, eat, meds, sleep. I try and motivate myself to play games and read and watch tv but mostly I stay in bed and get suffocated by my own impure thoughts, instructive and negative thoughts. I try and sit with them or ignore them but they bounce back. I should use distractions but motivation isn't there.
God, I need to move out and it hurts every second I'm here, like physically I can feel it. Emotionally I'm in hell but not because this place isn't bad but it isn't for me. At this moment in time I just want things to stop.
Hmm, staying in bed getting suffocated by thoughts doesn't sound idea. What do you think could help with motivation for distractions and other activities? I'm wondering if K could provide some text-motivation or something to give you some accountability?
Do you have a comfy couch or chair? Sometimes even just moving from bed to lay in a different spot can make a little bit of difference, if getting up feels entirely too much.
Please do not give me virtual hugs unless you are only using the hug function on threads. Thanks.
You can't always keep it separate.
This is happening, this is part of you.
I'm getting up more and doing things, like walking and cooking and crafts. I'm trying.
It was the age old dilemma or having a gf in secret and lying to her parents or coming out and causing an uproar with her religious parents. And I think also she didn't want to commit whereas I did.
I'm so sorry to hear that. You're doing so well to keep going and keep yourself busy. Try to be kind to yourself just now.
Also, we really need a catch up!
"I know you're sad, so I won't tell you to have a good day. Instead, I advise you to simply have a day.
Stay alive, feed yourself well, wear comfortable clothes, and don't give up on yourself just yet.
It'll get better. Until then, have a day."
We're talking occasionally, I'm feeling better about the situation.
Camden, the supported accomodation has two sites, a main house which I'm free to access which has lounges and comfy chairs and my house which has a lounge but really not comfortable sitting in silence with my roommate so I go to the main house to sit, which is what I've been doing and getting involved with activities, I've had a good few days. And not been in bed all day.
Thank you Hannah, we do! It's been far too long, we'll have to sort something out when this is all over.
That means a lot, Lana. Thank you.
I think so to, Lindsey. I've been feeling more positive lately.
I'm on the next step of getting my own place, just have to sort out the care I'll be recieving because they're not allowing me to move out without it. Cpn is coming Tuesday to sort it all out and then it's the waiting game. I'm looking at this as a new chapter which I can't wait to start.
I am glad to hear that you are able to continue to do things that are helpful.
Even the most simple and little things can have a great impact on how we are feeling and how recovery will be going.
I'm not sleeping as much anymore and actually starting to feel human in the morning. I've always been an early bird but lockdown has fucked up my routine like I said but things are looking brighter thank you.
Things are looking up. Everyone is backing me moving out, applications and references sorted, it seems like this is actually going ahead, very pleased.
The only thing I'm not even struggling or concerned about but rather not do all the time is cannabis, I've been smoking it with a fellow young tenant, but I won't go overboard with it.
Ive currently got a 24hr ECG on for etopic heartbeat but the Dr so it's benign so not worried but it's a pain. They're thinking it's my depot so when the results come back they'll either do nothing, change my depot or try beta blockers.
Sorry, I wasn't clear. I meant the cannabis is fine if I don't overdo it.
But I did, but with a class a drug a couple of times and slipped into a depressive episode, I'm just coming out of it