Possibly Triggering - finding your way
hello my name is fallen star, for years i have been depressed, last year it got out of control and i turned to self harm, and straving myself.. i attempted suicide twice, then i decided to get help and i got for 2 years theraphy and its only the last few months.. that i noticed it started to work. The thing is that at the moment, i'm in a really good place, there is no grey cloud hanging over my head, even tho is still dark there are stars in the sky at night, and i feel that things are starting to fall into place. What bothering me is that, i'm feel happy at the moment, not used to this feeling at all.. i'm afraid to stay happy, incase something happens that get rids of these great feelings.. But i have worked so hard to battle my depression, it really was a up hill battle, i'm afraid to enjoy this feeling of happiness, beacuse i really like feeling happy and bubbly, and i don't want to lose this feeling. I was just wondering should i go back to old ways bottle up my emotions, bring back my depression, or should i just go with the flow, focus on being positive.. i still really miss self harm and get very strong urges.. i just feel a bit lost, and i decided to write this thread, to ask if anybody else has felt this way before.. k wel that about it. Thanks for listening!
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