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Old 15-03-2008, 09:35 PM   #81
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I just found another scratch I didn't make. This is getting out of hand, considering I'm trying to stop.
This is a problem I have too.

I didn't consciously SI for about 9 months.
But unfortunately, Micheal, hating me the way he does, took over and did it for me.

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Old 16-03-2008, 07:38 AM   #82
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At the moment I'm rather, what in DID terms [although I don't have DID in full] is termed 'switchy' - flickering in and out of child feeling state and intense self protective state and adult functioning state. I'm doing my best to stay with it all.

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Old 16-03-2008, 01:26 PM   #83
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I freaked out last night. I sent a message on RYL, but it wasn't me, it was Victoria, and then she deleted it, because she felt ashamed of herself, and I was so dissassociated but I was watching it all.
I was so scared. I could have hurt myself.



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Old 16-03-2008, 03:37 PM   #84
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I've just replied to your post in Serious.

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Old 20-03-2008, 12:13 AM   #85
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slowly reading through all the messages.. its taking some time but its a real comfort having this thread here... feeling really grateful i'm not alone here with this kinda stuff

hoping everyone is doing ok

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Old 20-03-2008, 12:23 AM   #86
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How is everyone?



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Old 20-03-2008, 12:43 AM   #87
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i remembered a poem...

mental
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chicken and lentil


... well

its a start

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Old 20-03-2008, 12:49 AM   #88
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How does the rest go?



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Old 20-03-2008, 08:13 AM   #89
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It means so much to me when my therapist describes what happens with me, using dissociation-trauma connected language. I do need that validation over and over again, it seems...

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Old 20-03-2008, 12:30 PM   #90
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I can understand that.
But I don't have a shrink. So I have no validation. I just have you lovely people. This thread is of comfort to me.



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Old 20-03-2008, 01:42 PM   #91
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I'm glad this thread and the people who post on it help you feel less alone.

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Old 20-03-2008, 05:24 PM   #92
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i'm pretty certain i don't have any alternative personalities etc but i do sometimes feel, (and this is the only wasy i fell i can describe it) "not with it". Its like i just zone out and i'm not there. well i know i am but i still get these feelings of not being here. god that sounds weird to say. i've never told anyone bout it before. I think when i SI i end up like that. Like i'm not with it..like i'm not doing it.

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Old 20-03-2008, 05:31 PM   #93
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I understand what you mean, zoning out and not being there.

Dunno what it could be though, sorry. Just wanted to let you know you certainly aren't alone.

Bleh. I've been so..."switchy" is the only word I can think of, the last few days.

Like, switching between me, micheal and sally every few minutes... It seems to have calmed down a little today, I just don't know what to do, it's not conducive to being able to live properly.

Does anyone have any tips or clues about this??




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Old 20-03-2008, 07:00 PM   #94
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I often feel unreal, that I'm not quite here. Less so now, through therapy, but occasionally I catch myself and even say to myself 'Who is this person called Katie? Does she exist?' It's part of the whole dissociation-as-a-defence. It's called depersonalisation, and is a dissociative illness.

I'd suggest dialoguing with each of them, and finding out why they're coming forward more frequently, if you can.

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sorry bout the poem.. that's all there is!

yeah, i can relate to the zoning out/derealization... and switching sucks at times and i agree with upping communication between folks if you can... i'm still moving towards journaling so co-separate parts can talk to eachother (including me!!)

great book - 'stranger in the mirror' by marlene steinberg.. really describes dissociative stuff well

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Old 21-03-2008, 01:38 PM   #96
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When my dissociative disorder was...I guess...starting?...it started with feeling unreal and like I didn't exist. I can remember feeling that way when I was really little.
Does anyone else see things in the ceilings or on patterned carpets? My ceiling isn't smooth, it has bumps and such, and I can remember being afraid to look up because I'll see faces and animals and such and they're all moving and alive. Anything with a pattern can do that to me. That's why I have a lot of posters covering up my ceiling now. Even though the posters have stuff on them, at least I know they're meant to.



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Old 21-03-2008, 02:28 PM   #97
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i freaked out the other day cos i saw a face on a train, like when the train was pulling into the staion i saw it. tho i dont think ive seen things before.

i realised that a few years ago there was an incident where i SI'd really badly, but i had no memory of it. really not feeling myself right now :(






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Old 21-03-2008, 10:57 PM   #98
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I'm like that with patterns.

Though a lot of the time, I see the patterns/walls/floor/ceiling moving, as if it is made of water. It's horrible.

I think I'm a little more together at present. Thank you all for being there.

Hope everyone is well.

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Old 26-03-2008, 02:09 AM   #99
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Everything looks fake, far away and not real. It has done for weeks now.



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Old 28-03-2008, 12:18 AM   #100
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we have started a post for littles and tweens to post and play in

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