Originally Posted by Tin-Tin
Baby steps darling...
That's so, so true.
I don't think you are lying to yourself, it's just maybe now isn't the right time for you to give up self-harming. You have to be really ready to give up self harming and you need the right support.
Do you have anyone you can talk to about this? Such as a family member, friend or GP. I think you would really benefit from getting some help as it seems you want to stop but just don't have the right kind of help you need.