I don't know if relapse is the right word my brain isn't working right
But, I've been stable for a while. Not self harmed for 6 mo this, voices minimal. But the warning signs have been arou d for a while and I just put it down to stress at home, stress at work etc and i figured things would calm down. I don't want to accept that I'm getting ill again. I start a new job in 2 weeks. My friends need me to be the one that has their shit together. So do my family.
But I really do t. I'm not sleeping, I'm binging/restricting. I'm currently smoking despite having a nicotine test on Tuesday (it was this or lose my shit and then go home and drink myself to sleep)
I don't know what to do. I guess just, how do you accept that symptoms come back? I know all the coping stuff and who to call etc but I don't, I never really have.
Any advice welcome :/