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Old 23-05-2017, 08:00 AM   #41
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The Staircase

I'm walking down the staircase
Made of rickety driftwood
And a red rug in place.

I'm walking down quietly,
But each footstep makes a creak.
I try to breathe silently.

"Just what am I avoiding?"
I suddenly ask myself—
Yet I still keep on moving.

Each step takes me to darkness,
The light is left behind me.
I further step with harshness.

I'm walking down the staircase;
Just who knows where I'm headed?
I start to quicken my pace.

I'm stepping down suddenly.
Soon I'll take two steps a time,
Escaping what's behind me.

I don't want to turn around,
But the darkness is choking—
Then I stop without a sound.

Turning, I now see myself
Standing in a spot of light,
He spoke: "You've done this yourself".

I'm standing on the staircase
Made of rickety driftwood,
An image in my mind's space.

I'm standing there quietly—
A yearning to walk upwards
And a wish to be set free.

With nobody to save myself but me.

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Every morning

Some people wake up
And think of tomorrow;
Pro-active lifestyle,
With minds clear of sorrow.

Some people wake up
And think about today;
Plans and lists ready
To live life their own way.

Some people wake up
And think back yesterday;
With worry-filled hearts—
A hope for better days.

I wake up tired,
And think of years gone by;
This hell gets longer,
My every breath a sigh:

With a single wish to die.

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Fade to white

Emotions feel so far away;
Out of mind, out of sight.
I don't think I can fight today,
I'm all that's left to fight.
There's no hope, will I find a way?
If there's a way, I might—
But this darkness is here to stay,
There is no home for light.
My shadows are too deep, yet no ray
Of light, just an endless blight.
My wish is to make them all pay,
And fall from deathly heights;
There's no-one to hurt anyway,
My revenge seems so trite.
This may be my loneliest May,
Just myself left to sleight:
So I'll sit and wait for the day,
'Til there's naught left to write—

And my blackened heart just might fade to white.

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Today is far gone;
An afternoon depression.
Congealed thoughts rotting.

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She smiled at me once:
A once in a lifetime smile.
The autumn sun sets.

---

My frozen heart melts
At the sight of a lost love.
Forgotten mural.

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lmao who even writes haiku in 2017
i'd usually delete them and stuff like the staircase
but i guess you're only as good as your worst work
so i'll keep it so people can laugh at me or w/e

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Old 26-05-2017, 10:16 AM   #42
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Moments before rest

I'm lying in my bed,
Mental congestion plagues me:
Am I alive, or am I dead—
Or do I just want to be set free?

I'm sighing in my head,
Less effort if I don't breathe.
Yet despite all the times I've bled:
I'm still here, without a will to leave.

I'm filling up with dread,
How long will I have to live?
After all the people I've fled,
Loneliness has held me captive.

I'm lying in my bed,
I'll get up in the morning—
But right now, I'll just wish instead:
"Please save me from this bed I'm haunting,"

And pray that Death heeds what I've plead.


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haha poetry sucks


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Old 30-05-2017, 09:26 PM   #43
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Where do I look now?

I've built a room around myself:
Four walls, a floor and a ceiling—
To hide all signs that I'm feeling
As I try to find my true self.

The walls are made of warped mirrors,
But they're one way, I can only see
Disfigured expressions of me.
The walls shake, and my face tremors.

People I knew beat on the glass,
They're trying to break a way in
And visit the "me" kept within—
Although my sturdy walls held fast.

The ceiling and floor are darkness,
There are no trace of my footsteps
And the sky is only black depths.
My escape is all but hopeless.

I've build a room around myself:
Four walls, with no window nor door—
There's no one left outside to call
And I think I've lost my true self.


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i need new topics forreal this is repetitive

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Old 09-06-2017, 10:17 AM   #44
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repetitive

There is nowhere left to go.
Each twist and turn leads me here;
Like U-turn signs on both ends of the road
With no direction to steer.

I'm not being cynical.
Two steps forwards, two steps back;
This path I've been set on seems cyclical
And I think I'm about to crack.

There is nowhere left to go.
Each day, week, year feels the same,
And every minute just seems so slow—
I have no dreams left to claim

Is this a sign of madness?
Round and round I turn and twist:
Living the same, looking for new answers,
With a wish to not exist.

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Old 22-06-2017, 10:00 PM   #45
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The Prison

I stare in the bleakest mirror
Found within my deepest mind,
Brought forth from sleeping dreamscapes—
Lucidity.
I looked upon my darkened face
And he stared into my eyes in kind;
My mouth moved in the mirror,
He says to me:
"Why do you trap me in this Hell?"
"I just want to be set free."
"I'm a nice person," he swears.
Dark lips flapping,
"This is hell, and nobody cares,
Loneliness has beset me."
His fist thumps upon the cell,
Glass rattling.
There's no response that I can give,
My lips feel together sewn,
As he raps the glass once more;
A prisoner.
I look down to his hardened jaw—
Had he been there all alone?
With only a wish to leave
Here forever.
He screams at me, begging answers,
But my voice remains silent
As he condemns me of lies
Desperately.
A darkness settles in his eyes,
I can see his mind had bent
And fallen into madness
Delightfully.
He slams the cell door again
And again, but it holds through.
The mirror begins to warp;
Echoed laughter.
"This forsaken prison you've wrought
Hides a secret from you too—
See, I'm just a reflection,"
"I came after."
His shrieks broke near into a song,
Those lips tore a smile unkind.
A terrible thought I bore;
Comprehension.
I stare into the warped mirror
Found within my broken mind,
It was me trapped all along
With my reflection.

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Old 30-06-2017, 01:32 PM   #46
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country girl in a concrete prairie

The clandestine angel stands
Clad in sundress, drapes and strands
Of hair-bound forget-me-nots—
And I never once forgot.


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Old 04-07-2017, 12:33 PM   #47
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two
My bed is made for two,
With blankets made for two,
Count the pillows: one, two—
Either side with drawers, too.
Dining table seats two,
With placemats placed for two.
Two couches made for two,
And bookcase split in two.
Two racks for bathroom towels,
Two hooks for shower sponges;
All these things come in two:
Yet I'm here without you.

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Old 10-07-2017, 12:19 PM   #48
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detour
My teeth still hurt—
I guess it's no wonder:
Food for dinner,
And fingers for dessert.



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Old 17-07-2017, 08:38 AM   #49
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Lost byway, lost my way

I've strayed off the road
Of recovery,
I'm left all alone
With none to help me.
This path paved in mud
Where nothing can grow:
It's dirt mixed with blood.
My footsteps are slow,
I sink with each step—
But there's no footprints
From where I have left,
And it always stinks.
I struggle onward,
Regret in my heart,
A fence made of swords
Guides me on my path.
There's nothing beyond,
Blades are all I see;
They hum quiet songs:
"Come," they're goading me.
My last attempts failed,
I've crossed them before:
Leaving me impaled,
Wet mud on the floor...
I'll find my way back
By walking ahead,
And if my knees slack
I might lose my head.

I trudge my way forward, lest I fall dead.


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i sometimes reference songs i listen to whilst writing
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Old 31-03-2018, 06:11 AM   #50
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It's okay.
It's okay to dream a dream
Of lands unseen
'Cross conquered seas
It's okay to have dreams.

It's okay to live a full life
To find a wife
Live without strife
It's okay to have a life.

It's okay to feel hope inside
To go outside
Not have to hide
It's okay to hope inside

It's okay to show emotions
Rocking boat on
Depths of oceans
It's okay to have emotion.

It's okay to look back times past
Of heroes vast
And doubt left cast
It's okay to have a past.

It's okay to be kept in sight
The flame alight
Stand up and fight
It's okay to be

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Old 27-05-2018, 08:17 PM   #51
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Princess

A precious Princess pranced 'pon park play-fields.
This Princess (who was Precious), filled with life,
Ran and ran: her playfulness did not yield
Even through accidents and times of strife.

I wish we'd gone out more, the sun still bright;
Made other friends, she was always alone,
I really only took her out at night.
My biggest regret is leaving her home.

Her shining eyes that were filled with wonder—
That now-blank gaze stares at me listlessly.
Today, I put my best friend to slumber,
And she now sleeps forever painlessly.

Thinking back to the times she was my world,
So I pat her head one last time: "Good girl."


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r.i.p my doggo Princess 2005 - 2018.
i wrote this the same day we put her down (22nd may 2018). she lived for about 12 years 9 months, so she wasn't the youngest dog, and she's had a few issues here and there over the years.
couldn't bear to re-read this poem til today, so that's why it's a bit later.
also bit of trivia on the use of "Precious"; my mum actually named her that the first few days we got her, but then changed it to Princess after she noticed how she'd sort of strut around when she got her way lmao

it's so lonely here now

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Old 17-11-2018, 12:13 AM   #52
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another year gone by
another heavy sigh
another place to be
another home for me
another sing along
another lover's song
another heart beats fast
another love won't last
another page to fill
another dream to kill
another blade pressed down
another emotion drowned
another pain to live
another heart to give
another thoughtless smile
another life-long mile

but i'll walk, even if it kills me.

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Old 19-12-2018, 03:25 AM   #53
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Summer Stroll

I'm walking down sunburnt asphalt roads;
Shoe soles too thin, my feet are burning.
Grey clouds in the horizon forebodes
The fall of rain that I am yearning...
... As the clock keeps turning.

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misgivings

I've noticed a trend of things unjust,
Propaganda to make us adjust.
Each one brings me a feel of disgust
And yet none of this can be discussed.
A society that fell to lust,
Men are spoon-fed helpings of distrust
As women's worth crumble to dust:
Mettle of relations turned to rust.
Parenthood sidelined, now not a must,
Yet children used and abused in trust.
A storm is coming, now just a gust—
And I hope I'm around to see it all bust.

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maybe it's time to move on from this thread


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Old 25-12-2018, 04:23 AM   #54
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christmas lunch
christmas lights
christmas punch
christmas fights
christmas never get it right

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Old 12-09-2019, 12:00 PM   #55
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my heart's drowned in a frozen hell
clank clank clank clank
every beat's a clanging bell
and i don't have the breath to yell

my insides fell away from me
sink sink sink sank
stepping up stairs you cant see
the last stair air under your feet

this drowning feeling will not go
mind's blank blank blank
i can't breathe, my chest is hollow
i'm choking on air i can't swallow

nothing interests me anymore
drink drink drink drank
my hope's a drink i drank before
the bitter taste of a rotten core

i don't feel pain yet everything is sore


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the last time i wrote anything was last christmas lmao
this is trash but i needed to say anything to anyone
even if no one responds, at least i said something

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Old 13-09-2019, 10:30 AM   #56
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I haven't smiled in years
I haven't cried in years
I haven't loved in years
I haven't lived in years
But at least I've lived these years.

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I can't breathe
The air's too thick
And my chest's too heavy
I can't breathe

I can't think
Thoughts like water
And my mind is a sieve
I can't think

I can't feel
Everything's grey
And nothing excites me
I can't feel

I can't love
My heart is dead
And gone without a trace
I can't love

Yet my dreams cascade into me like a waterfall,
A tiny hope that I can get up and stand at all.

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Old 14-09-2019, 02:57 AM   #57
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rain rain go away
come again another day
rain rain came again
why won't this rain ever end?
rain rain please come back
rain until my vision's black
rain rain here to stay
i hope it washes me away.

inspo

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Old 14-09-2019, 09:53 AM   #58
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my heart's drowned in a frozen hell
clank clank clank clank
every beat's a clanging bell
and i don't have the breath to yell

my insides fell away from me
sink sink sink sank
stepping up stairs you cant see
the last stair air under your feet

this drowning feeling will not go
mind's blank blank blank
i can't breathe, my chest is hollow
i'm choking on air i can't swallow

nothing interests me anymore
drink drink drink drank
my hope's a drink i drank before
the bitter taste of a rotten core

i don't feel pain yet everything is sore


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the last time i wrote anything was last christmas lmao
this is trash but i needed to say anything to anyone
even if no one responds, at least i said something


I'm not a poetry person usually (so maybe my opinion isn't the most valid) but I like this and don't think it's trash at all.

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Old 14-09-2019, 10:34 AM   #59
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I'm not a poetry person usually (so maybe my opinion isn't the most valid) but I like this and don't think it's trash at all.
don't worry, i'm not a poetry person either. i have like next to no real technical ability and i don't really read it much, it's just one of the few outlets i have left.

thank you so much though, it's been a good minute since anyone's commented on anything here ❤️

it's basically been a diary for the last 3 years lmao

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You're welcome. It's nice to have a place to put it all though. And even if no one comments, people are still reading.

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