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Old 01-02-2018, 02:19 AM   #1
And broken once more
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checking in after several years awol


I used to post on RYL quite a lot, mainly whilst i was really ill and needed the support. The journals were a great source of venting for me. I've just read through all my posts. Back then i was so very depressed and hopeless. I;d just been diagnised with bipolar, i;d lost my job, i never thought i;d work again and i was in an abusive realtionship. Looking back i never thought it would ever get better. I;ve now been self harm free for 3 years.

I've now been at my job for 5 years (only part time anymore triggers bipolar episodes), which to say i never thought i'd work again has been something i never thought i;d achieve. They;ve been really good with making adjustments so i can continue working.

I met my parter 3 years ago and compared to my ex he;s a godsend. He understands my mental illness and he supports me. Years ago i didnt have that and i never thought i would get anywhere close to meeting someone who was right for me.

I'm looking back on my entries and back then i was suidical. I ddn;t want to live. That's now changed. I want to live more than ever. I want a future with my partner. I want to live life to the full.

I feel like i;ve been given a second chance and grateful for the fact i didn;t off myself when i had chance.

I'm not posting this to gloat, but because i want everyone else on here to have a good life. To know that even in the darkest of times, theres still a chance of things to get better. If you'd told me that 6 years ago id have laughed in your face. I never thought i;d have a future. I'm thankful RYL was around back then as it gave me amazing support and a safe place to vent when i needed to. To everyone here i hope you get your happy ending

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Old 01-02-2018, 05:35 PM   #2
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so pleased to hear things are so much better, I have a similar story and thank you for sharing.

"I am me and me is good enough if I would only be it openly"

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Old 01-02-2018, 08:08 PM   #3
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That's great to hear, I'm glad things are working out for you.

I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.

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Old 10-02-2018, 01:05 PM   #4
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I'm glad to hear things are going well for you! :)

Sometimes when I say "I'm okay," I want someone to look me in the eyes, hug me tight, and say "I know you're not."

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Old 10-02-2018, 04:04 PM   #5
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well done :) and I'm glad things have turned out right for you xx

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