Hey everyone!! It's been a number of days since I last posted in here. I hope Ya'll are doing the best you can.
I have been okay for the most part. Not much going on today except I'm waiting for the fiance to pick me up then we are going to the library to do some research then we are going to shoot our monthly local access paranormal tv show.
I worked really hard today and I'm exhausted. I'm nervous about tomorrow. My son has a Dr's appointment and I have a feeling it's not going to go very well. I'm trying to prepare myself for it now but it's tough. I wish I didn't even have to go or at least hubby could go with me but he can't.
Sometimes when I say "I'm okay," I want someone to look me in the eyes, hug me tight, and say "I know you're not."
Thanks. It didn't go well. :( he is so backed up Dr doesn't think he can get cleaned out at home and it'll be another hospitalization. His anxiety is through the roof and I don't know how to help him. He's only 9 (well in 2 weeks).
Sometimes when I say "I'm okay," I want someone to look me in the eyes, hug me tight, and say "I know you're not."
I'm trying to be positive this morning. I've loaded up on coffee, prepared to have more later too. Not quite ready to face the day but here it is so I guess I have to!
How are you today Mark?
Sometimes when I say "I'm okay," I want someone to look me in the eyes, hug me tight, and say "I know you're not."
Having a really rough time right now... I just want to make it all go away... especially the Voices
*puts some cookies and brownies on the table*
*sits in the corner and stares at the wall
~Matt~
Susanna Kaysen: I'm ambivalent. In fact that's my new favorite word.
Dr. Sonia Wick: Do you know what that means, ambivalence?
Susanna Kaysen: I don't care.
Dr. Sonia Wick: If it's your favorite word, I would've thought you would...
Susanna Kaysen: It *means* I don't care. That's what it means.
Just worn out from 3 year old tomorrow Nephew after 85 year old Granny with vascular dementia who was just repeating over and over she wanted to die and listing methods for about an hour this morning.
I'm still not comfortable in my skin and the anasthetic's slowly wearing thin - Otep
Everyones lost but me! - Indiana Jones
It's okay , they know me here .
Kahlia1981 is my adopted little sister :)
''Courage doesn't always roar , sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow"
this was 2 pages ago, I'm sorry. I took an internet break. Sometimes keeping up everywhere is too stressful.
Because Kathryn asked a while back: I got accepted to residence and I put my tuition deposit down and got my student card. Just have to keep going to work so I can pay for my first few months at residence in a big lump sum. Going to work feels really hard but staying where I am now is unthinkable. It's starting to feel real and I'm getting cautiously excited.
*offers everyone handmade blankets* hope things are ok for everyone.
Drew, congratulations on residence! I know work may seem hard right now but just take it a little bit at a time and think of your end goal. You can do this!
Thank you for the blanket. It's beautiful :)
Today is going pretty well. Not at all how I planned though. That's both good and bad.
Sometimes when I say "I'm okay," I want someone to look me in the eyes, hug me tight, and say "I know you're not."
I'm fighting a sinus infection. Not fun. Sad that it's Sunday because if we can't get my son where he needs to be today then I'm worried how this week will go.
So for now... *offers warm drinks and pastries*
*sits down to color some more*
Sometimes when I say "I'm okay," I want someone to look me in the eyes, hug me tight, and say "I know you're not."
I don't want to be here again.i don't want the fear. I don't want the hate. I don't want the hopelessness. Yet here it comes.....again
~Phoenix~ is my Little Sister of Awesomeness and Self-Delusion :P Bitter Angel is my Mitten Animad is my Top Trump All Im Living For - Is my beautiful and special daughter who isnt called Kim but will moan if i dont add her :P
