zowie - hope you have a nice evening with your sis and enjoy those fags The EIT are good, the woman I see is lovely, I just wish the therapy would hurry up cos I'm just kind of waiting and deteriorating more and more as time goes by. So frustrating because I really want to be better, I just can't do it by myself grrrrrrr. Yeah my budgie is so cute! I'll post a photo at some point when I work out how lol.
Shadowed - well done for leaving the house, it's scary. That's great that your mum was there to support you, it's always easier to cope with when you have someone there supporting you. You should feel really proud of yourself!
Cheryl - well done, take it as a compliment, and it's a positive thing that you can recognise that you wouldn't be able to handle it at the moment. At uni I had to turn some things down including my year abroad (I would have been off to Frankfurt any day now for a 7 month internship in a translation company) but at the end of the day it's better to have the self awareness and stuff. Sorry that was really rambly I don't know what the point of that was but basically don't feel bad, just take it as a compliment.
Secrets - have you tried doing relaxation techniques or reading or something? I'm really struggling with my anxiety at the moment, I'm anxious 24/7 and it's horrible. Hope things calm down for you soon.
Hey all sorry its been so long since I came in. I got a new job, my g/f left me, I passed my classes, my next math class I was given 3 books! scarry for a 9 week class. PM's of support please in moving forward would be nice... i don't need to be with her she's the one that keeps walking away. Oh and I told my pastor Im a cutter and she isn't gonna tell my mom, Im 20 so she doesn't have to worry abotu getting in trouble. Still in the very beginning of how we are gonna handle it but its a start. I know I came to ryl for help but hse is someone in my life I see and have to answer too. I don't know many people on here. =/
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*hugs everyone* my mum's just been shouting at my dad for killing some ivy-leaved toadflax with the weedkiller, she is so unreasonable sometimes, I just want to get a job so I can have my own place again.
I made 8 weeks. Where did those eight weeks go? it only seems like yesterday, it's still as bad as if it was yesterday. I'm still having bloke issues, I have this friend who I really fancy who just wants to have sex and nothing else and now I've just had an email from another friend saying he likes me but although I think he is a lovely lovely guy I don't fancy him, doh, I think it may be all part of the same problem though - me.
*hugs Lost Girl* congratulations on passing your classes that's a great achievement, and I'm sorry to hear about your girlfriend. You're right you don't need her, it's her loss. well done telling your pastor that couldn't have been easy. I hope that she is supportive .
*hugs Cheryl* I guess Captain is a lot of responsibility and I'm sure you'd be very good at it, but maybe it's not what you need right now, as long as you carry on enjoying playing, that's the main thing.
*hugs HannahBanana* I hope the therapy starts soon, I'm so glad you want to get better though, that is a very big step.
*hugs Arwen* hope you had a good evening with your sister. How are you?
*hugs Secrets* anxiety is really horrible, has the doctor been able to suggest anything?
*hugs ShadowedSoul* well done on leaving the house, hope youa re doing okay
*hugs Katie* how are you?
*hugs Helen, Dayna, Kat, Gil, Hayley, Jem, Kahlia and anyone else dropping by today, leaves some cheesy tunes playing on the radio and starts dancing around the room*
I wish just something in my life would just go right for a change
"I am me and me is good enough if I would only be it openly"
Hi guys.. I'm doing ok.. I think.. I dunno.. I feel very very sick. Not sure if it's to do with the alcohol :/ Probably is.. oops.
I've decided to take a bit of a break while I'm away. Nothing bad, just taking a step back. Although I might not last long LOL. Just thought I'd let you all know.. and don't forget me :P So I leave tomorrow morning.. actually, early this morning ;)
*cuddles everyone* Take care xx I'll be back shortly I bet ;)
My shoulder surgery has happened and all appears to be going well. I'm geetting more pain from having my cast elevated than from my shoulder so far. Oh well.
She shouts, she screams, she smashes your dreams . . .
Would you mind if I killed you? Would you mind if I tried to?
'Cause you have turned into my worst enemy,
You carry hate that I don't feel: It's over now WHAT HAVE YOU DONE
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*hugs wildly insane* forget what i was saying. i was talking so much crap. yeah i do have something to keep me going. but its bring more and more hasle, im im not sure it is worth it. im stuck in a place i hate. and i know if i say anything. all i get is, this is what you wanted jill. ****sake, yeah mabye it was, but now im really starting to regret it. and 1 more person say it will be worth it, i will not be held reposible for what i will do to them. crap, why do i always make things hard for myself. =/
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