Recently I have become more and more emotionally fragile. I don't take emotional hits very well. I always get run over by family and friends because I can't say no. I am just tired of resisting what the voices tell me to do because its very draining
~Matt~
Susanna Kaysen: I'm ambivalent. In fact that's my new favorite word.
Dr. Sonia Wick: Do you know what that means, ambivalence?
Susanna Kaysen: I don't care.
Dr. Sonia Wick: If it's your favorite word, I would've thought you would...
Susanna Kaysen: It *means* I don't care. That's what it means.
Jay, if the music makes you down have you tried other music?
Mark, I'm pretty sure you qualify to visit with only a passport... this is the linky though to the info i was looking at -specific to the uk even:) - hope that makes you less nervous. *hugs*
I totally understand that, Matt. *sits with*
*hugs Matt and Jay*
I was lei'd in vets! ***** Proud Plumeria Sister!
"He said look inside your heart/ And you'll see stars/ Falling stars/ Look, deep into my eyes/ Don't look down/ Or you'll fall, he said/ Here, the sky goes on forever"
*cuddles laura and anyone else who wants*
love you guys <3
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
I have an update from Oliver , I guess I'll just type out the texts
"I'm not good ,saw the Doctor yesterday and she wasn' happyas I ran away again yesterday and she said if I do it again they will put me on a secure unit. Then I got angrywith her over a different matter and she told me to leave so I did then I was punching walls and she told all the staff to just leave me and not intervene. I've just been lying on my bedever since crying and scared cos now my name isn't on the board with the other patients so I'm scared they are moving me. But no one is telling me anything . Sorry for the ramble"
and
"I know the urge to run away is so strong but I'm trying not too. Trouble is I have shower gel etc in my room and want to do stuff with that just want to die but I'm too scared to talk to the staff cos I'm convinced they all hate me"
I'm sorry I'm not the bearer of better news :(
I'm still not comfortable in my skin and the anasthetic's slowly wearing thin - Otep
Everyones lost but me! - Indiana Jones
It's okay , they know me here .
Kahlia1981 is my adopted little sister :)
''Courage doesn't always roar , sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow"
"He said look inside your heart/ And you'll see stars/ Falling stars/ Look, deep into my eyes/ Don't look down/ Or you'll fall, he said/ Here, the sky goes on forever"
*hugs Mark and Jill and anyone else wandering around in here*
I'm starting to feel like a yoyo. It's dizzying. I think I actually prefer all being low or all being ok. This up and down and up and down is driving me crazy.
*runs off to write while I'm not feeling thoroughly uninspired* 27750 words btw :) more than half way through my word goal for a month of working on my novel (it's day 21 of 30, goal is 50k words)
I was lei'd in vets! ***** Proud Plumeria Sister!
"He said look inside your heart/ And you'll see stars/ Falling stars/ Look, deep into my eyes/ Don't look down/ Or you'll fall, he said/ Here, the sky goes on forever"
"He said look inside your heart/ And you'll see stars/ Falling stars/ Look, deep into my eyes/ Don't look down/ Or you'll fall, he said/ Here, the sky goes on forever"
Thanks!
I probably could have already if I just didn't get so low periodically that i can hardly think... I've skipped writing 11 days of the 21 so far. :( It helps that I know where I want this part of the story to go and wrote myself out prompts so if I forget what's going on I can look at my notes...
*hugs* How are you tonight?
*update* up to 28882 words.
Last edited by PoisonedApple : 09-09-2011 at 11:11 PM.
I was lei'd in vets! ***** Proud Plumeria Sister!
"He said look inside your heart/ And you'll see stars/ Falling stars/ Look, deep into my eyes/ Don't look down/ Or you'll fall, he said/ Here, the sky goes on forever"
