Tracking driving emotion?
So, I guess I'll do a quick update.
Last week Sunday, I SHed in front of my dad (even while trying to reel back to prevent doing it). He noticed I wasn't totally in control of myself, so my parents took me to the emergency room. Long story short there, I spoke with a crisis worker there, and we decided to meet with my therapist 3 times a week instead of just 1. After discussing this, my therapist taught me a deep breathing technique that's helped quite a bit, and has even gotten me out of a potential SH situation. Last meeting, he asked me to do 2 things (kind of).
1. keep track of the main emotion driving me
2. keep track of sadness
My guess is that he wants to diagnose me with depression and get those gears set in motion.
Problem is that I don't really know what emotion drives me, if any. I also can't really tell the amount of sadness I have. I've tried tracking it, but I can't really come up with a clear answer. Any ideas on how to get a better picture?