Help sorting through my thoughts
Recently, a friend of mine acknowledged he was questioning his sexuality, in that he knew he was attracted to women, but possibly men, too. Being un-labeled (pansexual if you MUST have something) and gender fluid, I was understanding of this. We both have girlfriends, and we have both always been jokingly flirty with one another.
My girlfriend and I have been having some troubles lately, and it's been taking it's toll on me. "Ken," let's call him, came to chill out with me and watch the election results come in. We ended up talking about this and some other personal things, and normally we would've sat close or made light contact or something. But tonight, we legitimately cuddled, his head on my bare chest, unabashedly homoromantic. This continued throughout the night, whether we were making small talk, laughing, or talking seriously.
I don't know where this came from, and maybe it was just in my head that we made a connection. We are both committed men, but something was there, I think. And I can't tell if I really didn't want it to go further. He mentioned me sleeping over in his bed, and I couldn't tell if he was joking, but I considered it. I really do love my girlfriend. I don't know what's wrong.