I really wasnt sure if this was supposed to be in the abuse-forum.
Soo...My brother has been acting weird for like a while, or always. Ive been pretty annoyed by him because he has been hitting on my friends. He's 25 and Im 18 btw. He's mostly been talking to them through msn and the internet. I knew that he had talked to my (former) bestfriend several times, but I thought it was just innoncent fun. Anyway, I didnt react that much until one day when he started talking to me. He said he had bought new clothes, and wondered if I wanted to see them. I was like; uhm, sure. He went away and came back a couple minuts later...He told me he got new underwear, and I was like, Uhm, ok
And when he asked if I wanted to see them I really got confused and told him he was acting weird. He said some other (sexual)stuff, stuff you wouldnt say to your sister, before i blocked him. I didnt tell anyone except for my bestfriend, I mean, it wasnt such a big deal, just odd. Nothing else happend anyway.
Well today my mum came and visited me, and she told me things..
It all started some years ago, and she has had a really hard time with it, and didnt tell anyone. My brother had also done more then just talking with my bestfriend...Im kinda pissed at her actually, cause he has a problem, and it almost feels like shes taking adventage of him. Cause from what she told me she thought it was really amusing that he had the hots for her...
Anyway. I dont know how to react. My brother "had to work" during christmas, but the truth was that my sister couldnt handle being together with him, so he stayed away. Now, my mum said that a natural reaction would be to not talk to him anymore and stuff, but we have to get through it as a family. My family has never been close, but still, it hurts me seeing my mum. Cause she was the last one to be told, they didnt wanna tell her before, because that was around the time I got hospitalized, and they(my sisters and father)thought it would be too much. Anyway, he's getting help from some people from our church, and he has talked to my sister.
Sorry about my babbling. Just had to write it down...I want to Self harm now. I dont feel that much, like when I first got to know it I just felt sad, but now I dont feel anything. Shouldnt I be a bit angry?
Also, my mum compared the thing with my brother with my depression, and later said that my brother had ruined the family.
So Ive ruined the family too?
This was probably confusing, sorry.