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Old 25-11-2019, 07:06 PM   #241
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Yeah they are. I don't know why. I'm drinking lucozade every day as my CPN told me but I can't help thinking of all the calories. I feel out of control.
Can you try and read back over what Camden wrote above about control? They made a very strong point about what control really is!

I'm glad you're drinking the lucozade; hopefully you will start to feel physically better soon.



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Old 27-11-2019, 04:26 PM   #242
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I am so confused. I don't feel in control. today I have been wondering how i could end it. I have things to look forward to so why am I thinking like this?



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Old 27-11-2019, 07:46 PM   #243
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And my sister is feeling really bad so i dont want to add stress to my parents.



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Old 27-11-2019, 08:21 PM   #244
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It's understandable things might feel out of control when you're starting to add stuff back in. Just because eating and drinking is real control doesn't mean our heads don't fight it until we get used to it again.

I understand you don't want to add stress to your parents, but I think it'd probably be worth bringing up to them anyway. They want to help you and support you as well as your sister. Is there anything that might make it easier to reach out to them?

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Old 28-11-2019, 09:32 AM   #245
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I might talk to my CPN first. But what do I say???



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Old 28-11-2019, 10:33 AM   #246
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You've explained yourself well here, can you say something similar to your CPN? You are important.





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Old 28-11-2019, 11:18 AM   #247
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I phoned him. I said that since I've been increasing my intake I have been feeling unsafe. He said not to feel pressured and asked me to check my blood pressure every day, though I don't know how reliable our cuff is. So I think that's permission to go back to my previous intake. He can't meet me because he's too busy today and tomorrow, and he's away next week.



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Old 28-11-2019, 12:44 PM   #248
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My parents have agreed to not harass me about my food.



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Old 28-11-2019, 03:15 PM   #249
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Do you feel any better after speaking to your CPN? I think it would be good if you could increase your intake a little, even just on some days, if you need to watch your blood pressure. It's good that people are trying to relieve some of the pressure they have been putting on you, it must be hard to have such a focus on food and doing things you're uncomfortable with but I do hope you can take smaller steps that suit you better.





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Old 28-11-2019, 03:43 PM   #250
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At first I felt worse because I hadn't managed to tell him how unsafe I am, but I am already feeling s bit more in control.



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Old 28-11-2019, 05:37 PM   #251
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Do you feel less unsafe now? What will you do if you feel you can't stay safe any more, will you let your parents know?





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Old 28-11-2019, 08:10 PM   #252
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I will try. Problem is, my sister's depression is overwhelming again so she needs lots of support and attention and I feel bad telling the whole truth. So I just said to my mum that I'm not totally safe at the moment.



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Old 28-11-2019, 08:28 PM   #253
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If I tried tying a ligature and it didn't work, are there any physical problems I would have to live with?



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Old 28-11-2019, 08:35 PM   #254
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Brain damage is a major risk with ligaturing. Could you contact the crisis team since you feel like this? You deserve some help.

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Old 29-11-2019, 01:17 PM   #255
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N ran off yesterday evening, we had to get the police out. I have to be the safe one.



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Old 29-11-2019, 06:16 PM   #256
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I used one of my therapy tools with my mum and decided not to harm or kill myself for now.



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Old 29-11-2019, 06:46 PM   #257
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Really well done.



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Old 29-11-2019, 07:21 PM   #258
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I'm really glad you used your therapy tools and that you asked your Mum for help with it. Your family obviously care about both you and your sister and I'm sure they can be there for you both when you need them. You deserve support just as much as your sister.





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Old 01-12-2019, 06:46 PM   #259
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I admire my sister so much, I can't imagine losing her. I feel powerless to help her with her depression so I try to show her love.



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Old 02-12-2019, 11:58 AM   #260
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There's a quote I read somewhere which I think is quite powerful "You cannot save people you can only love them." You obviously love your sister very much and you show that love. I hope she feels it and I hope you get some love from other people (and hopefully yourself) too.





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