Hi, i am finding things really hard right now, my boyfriend of
9months lost his 14 year old brother due 2 suicide a few days ago its breaking my heart as i got on with him really well and it hurts
seing my boyfriend and family a total mess, at first my boyfriend needed me when he found out the news but he has recently been staying at his mums since it
happend which is about
30mins away from where i am and i
dont drive, i have a
2year old daughter and i left her with my mum to go and comfort them
manily my boyfriend, i have done everything pack his bag to go 2 his mums, cuddle him, comfort his mum, wash his back and hair in the bath, called round 2 see his uncle to see if he was ok all these little things i have done off my own back, i really do care and just do these things but i have done everything 2 try and help but who does he ring wen he needs someone??? is friends? why
dont he want me his girlfriend?? i felt sad by this but put it 2 the back of my head but it hurt, his friends and i have been with him since but he has been avoiding being alone with me what have i done? he
doesnt want to be alone with me his friends have 2 constantly be there? my boyfriend has turned 2 drink really badly his friends wont listen 2 me wen i say hes had enough and he needs to get home? they let him get more drunk after hes
allready drunk.. he is really bad wen hes drunk, he keeps coming back up to this area as an escape away from the house and his mum and that, but hes going to the pub he has drank for
4days in a row now i am
woried about his health, i said id go to the put with him but he said he just wanted to go with a friend i felt pushed out again, i had to come home anyway
cuz i have my little girl but he is in this area now with his friends i rang him today and ask what he was doing he was just saying i
dont know, i said i might be going to your mums later, he said well i
duno wat i am doing.? i said why are you pushing me away? he said sorry i
dont know.. our relationship is 2nd right now,, but surely we
shudnt let this
ruien our relationship surely he
shud need me right now why
dont he need me and he needs his friends? i said should stay away?he said i
dont no what i what i am going through a hard time, i understand but i am so
jelous he wants his friends and not me i feel i
shud stay away, i feel pushed
sooooooooo far out i feel like his mates can be there 24/7 but i have to beg or ask
pemission, feel i cant even just turn up at his mums incase he was there and
didnt want me there, i feel so alone, heartbroken, angry
jelous, pushed away, i
dont know what to do i
dont want us to be over i feel i have lost him
allredy hes messed up and different.. i
dont want this to
ruien his life, our life, i must sound very selfish but am i
devistated about the death of his brother but its hard
ti be so upset, try and be strong for my boyfriend and feel like this because he
doesnt want me he wants his friends. when will he want me?
plz help me people out there i
dont know what to do this is the only way i thing i could get answers.. why is he doing this.. men
ou there have you done this yourself?
plz write back.. i am so lost, x
