Triggering (SI) - Progress?

[stacy]

I haven't cut since the last of October but tonight I ended up trying the rubber band thing.I never had before because I basically thought it was a joke.I mean,there's more to it than the pain.Part of what always worked for me was the ritual of it;popping the razor,watching the blood,then stopping it,etc...
I can't say that it really worked for me but when I finally made a mark that I knew would stay around for a couple of days I was at least able to calm down enough to get home without saying anything stupid to the person I was upset with.
I don't know,I guess I'm trying to figure out how I'm supposed to feel about it.I shouldn't be doing anything to hurt myself but at least I didn;t cut.I'm also kind of curious as to what that says about my reasons for SI.Like why is it that I need to see visual proof that lasts for more than a few minutes?
Oh well,guess I'm just rambling now.

[lostdaisy]

Hey well done for lasting since October btw that is really great!!!

I can kind of understand what you mean because i sometimes get something out of seeing a mark. I'm not sure why either.
Keep writing down your feelings
take care pm if you ever want to
take care x

Heya,

Well done for lasting so long that is amazing, well done..
sometimes just seeing a mark really can help
if you ever need anything feel free to pm me
take care
lana
xoxo