oh lord I tried

[unfocused]

so I had been clean from self harm for over a decade and in the last 12 months it has all snowballed into a big ball of wobbly wobbly timey wimey mess.

I needed to reach out to a place that I knew I could trust so I wanted to come back here and hopefully reconnect with a system of support.

I also start ED therapy this week (first time ever) at the age of 34. To say I am scared is an understatement. I am a big ball of mess and no clue what to do differently right now.

So here I am admitting I have gone back to old habits big time and hoping to come back out of this again

[one_step_closer]

Hi, welcome back. I'm sorry you're having such a hard time at the moment. I hope being back here helps. Take care.