i hate *ed trigger*

[xfallenangelx]

feeling so uncomfortable in my body. i know i look skinny even though im approaching a healthy weight, so why cant i feel skinny ? why cant i be beautiful why do i have to feel so repulsive all the time. im finding it harder and harder to even leave the house, i feel like everyone is staring at me and thinking how repulsive i am. i hate being so vain, my self confidence is just nil at the moment. its hard to keep eating, although i know deep down that starving myself will not make me look better, its hard to eat because i know that at least for a while, it would make me feel better.

*cries*
im so useless and pathetic and vain.
some people have real problems.
i should get over myself.
i just don't know how

[xXdrunk on shadowsXx]

Hun an eating disorder is a real problem. You know that. It changes the way you see yourself and tries to control you. But I know you'll get through this. Remember you are stronger than whatever ana says and you don't have to listen to her. Keep fighting! I know you can recover from this :) *cuddles*

[[Purple_Rain]]

oh sweetie *holds you* you're not vain at all, its the ED makeign you think like that. its not you, the ED tries to convince you your all of those things you're so afraid of being, thats why you find it hard to go out. but the ED is lying. it jsut wants to keep controll.

you do have a real problem, if your finding it hard to eat, when eatign is a completley normal behaviour, then you do definatly have problems, which you cant just 'get over'. it takes support from others, and patients with yourself from you. you wont get better over night, but recovery is possible.

its is really really good that you know stareveing yourslef wont make you happy in the long term. the short term happiness you feel from it isnt real. is there a way you could eat and then distract yourself afterwards? and it migth help to talk abotu the cuases of your ED, do you think you could do that?

Im just a PM away ok?

liz

[KrissyInterupted]

omgg im at the exscat same stage as you!!!

i havnt left the house in agess

[Buttercup.]

You do have a real problem honey. An eating disorder is a real problem, and as we all know here, it is not at all easy to cope with. It seems you have come a long way, it is great that you can recognize the reality of your situation seeing that you are NOT really fat. Right now what you need to do is keep asking for support, talking about it with others, and doing your best to ignore the eating disorder voice that is lying to you. If you want to talk, PM me.

Jess xo

[sparkle.]

the others are all right, sweetheart; you're not useless, pathetic, or vain, and it is a real problem. *Cuddles* I just wish I could make you feel better, I don't think I can add anymore to what the girlies have said, just please take care, and if people are staring at you, it's only because you're gorgeous :) xxxx

[xfallenangelx]

thankyou everyone. im going to try real hard to just get on with my life, i cant let it take overr. i feel like if i even give ana a tiny bit then she'll take it all. thats what she did before. thankoo for your cuddles xxxx *cuddles back*
xxx

[small light]

Keep going darling *cuddles* sorry I have not many words, but I know exactly how you feel xxxxx

[random.swirls]

Keep fighting and you can do this

Huggles

xoxox