Three months

[Carla_x]

My emotions are a bit out of control at the moment. It's been three months since I self harmed and I desperately don't want to again, but right now it's so hard because I feel like I deserve it.

And I feel really guilty for posting this, but it's so hard to keep it all inside.

[Pops.]

Hi Carla. Well done for going three months without hurting yourself :) That's brilliant. It's also good that you don't want to do it again. Try to hold on to that if you can. I'm sorry that your emotions are a bit out of control right now. Would it help to talk more about it? And why you think you deserve it?

You have no reason to feel guilty for posting this either. You totally deserve support and it's okay to ask for it. You don't have to keep it all inside.

[Patent Pending]

Hi.

Well done for being three months SH free =) That's awesome! You should be proud of yourself.

It's good you're still fighting the urges; and well done for continuing to do so. Would it help to talk about why you feel you deserve to SH? Especially when you've done so amazingly already?

Do you have any support around you to help with this?

x x x

[Carla_x]

This is why. I don't really feel able to talk to any of my friends about this stuff, mostly because I just worry about what they're thinking about me if I talk about this stuff. I generally find it easier to seperate that part of my life from them if possible. One of my close friends has already had to patch me up before I got to the doctors the last time I self harmed, so feel it'd be unfair to offload my crap onto them.

Things feel too tense at home to talk about this stuff much. I live with my boyfriend and I adore him, but he's generally being quite defensive at the moment and I feel like he just gets frustrated when I get upset or talk about this stuff.

I usually have weekly therapy but it's 4 weeks on, 1 week off - and this week happens to be the one week off. :P

[talaiporia]

Three months is amazing, and you should be really proud of that. It's worth thinking about trying all the regular tips and tricks, like the Cutting Warning Label, which might help remind you why not to start again, or RYL's Big Distraction Page ,the Butterfly Project or White Wednesday. Otherwise a 'Crisis box', (Uh-oh Box) might be useful.

I'm going to put the rest of my reply in your other thread, so I don't get mixed up and say the same stuff twice! :P