Flashbacks
Anxiety
Suicidal thoughts.
MH team say I'm psychotic. I don't know.
I keep seeing dead people.
Voices say "kill yourself"
More flashbacks.
I don't feel safe.
The electricity is back.
On the wrong side of the road the government can read your thoughts.
Please help!
The average,
well-adjusted adult
gets up at 7.30am feeling just plain terrible.
Call me Kate.
I have dyslexia so please excuse my poor spelling and sometimes poor understanding.
I was raped again last Friday.
I had to have a forensic examination
It made me cry and have a panic attack.
police have filed a report.
It's all too much.
I'm scared the world will explode.
Can I get some support and hugs.
Sorry I've not been around for a while.
The average,
well-adjusted adult
gets up at 7.30am feeling just plain terrible.
Call me Kate.
I have dyslexia so please excuse my poor spelling and sometimes poor understanding.
What professional support do you have at the moment?
The early intervention team are seeing me 3 times a week.
And my gp is calling me weekly.
I was under htt but they kept sending men and i couldn't cope with that
The average,
well-adjusted adult
gets up at 7.30am feeling just plain terrible.
Call me Kate.
I have dyslexia so please excuse my poor spelling and sometimes poor understanding.
i know what you mean about feeling like you must be asking for it or deserve it or something becasue it's happened so many times. i have the same feelings. but it's not you, it's them. i promise.
I'm sorry you're going through this. If you're not feeling safe, you could call the crisis team or go to A&E. I can understand the worry about being sectioned, but if you are willing to work with them that won't happen and I think your priority right now needs to be keeping yourself safe. Everything is bound to be scary and overwhelming right now but all of that will settle down eventually, you just have to keep safe and reach out for the help you need.
"I know you're sad, so I won't tell you to have a good day. Instead, I advise you to simply have a day.
Stay alive, feed yourself well, wear comfortable clothes, and don't give up on yourself just yet.
It'll get better. Until then, have a day."
Sorry you're struggling so much. Hugs. You are not to blame for any of this. It isn't anything you have or haven't done, it's the people who attacked you who have something the matter with them. Keep safe x
My police liaison officer called this morning and took a statement. She is pushing me to take it to court but I don't want to. I'm sick of going over it with professionals and saying all that in court would be too traumatic for me I think.
is it bad that I just wanna forget about it and just let it be in the past.
I know others girls could be a risk but it's just all too much.
Do you guys think im doing the wrong thing?
The average,
well-adjusted adult
gets up at 7.30am feeling just plain terrible.
Call me Kate.
I have dyslexia so please excuse my poor spelling and sometimes poor understanding.
Only you can decide whether to take it forward or not, there's no right or wrong answer. If the police are saying about taking it to court they must be confident of the case succeeding. Have they talked through what would happen if you go to court ie could you give evidence from behind a screen and also what support will they give you through the whole process? Are they aware of your mental health team and are your mental health team aware that the police want to take it to court? You'll need support from both to get through it if you do decide to go to court. Thinking of you.
I think I'll go through the whole court case thing when I'm feeling more mentally strong enough.
Right now I'm under htt and at risk of being put in hospital.i think if i went to court i would definitely end up in hospital and i really don't want that.
I need to keep myself safe right now and thats really difficult.
I have an emergency appointment with EIS tomorrow to decide what to do to help me. I hope they don't say hospital.
I don't trust the police at the moment I think they are working with that guy who assaulted me. I don't belive their identity.
I called the rape and sexual assault centre today and they said they will tell the police to back off a bit coz im not well enough.
I wish there was a pill that would instantly get rid of depression. Like a depression prn.
The average,
well-adjusted adult
gets up at 7.30am feeling just plain terrible.
Call me Kate.
I have dyslexia so please excuse my poor spelling and sometimes poor understanding.
Could you give a video statement instead of going through it again and again. I know when I was going through it the person who was in charged said a video statement would push you but that would be it unless they had further questions in court. It would be played..Ayre if that's what you want and when you're ready maybe you could ask your cc to be there with you to support you when you do it. Don't forget you don't have to do it now it's when you're ready.
You don't ask for it but I know what you mean about asking for it. No one has the right to touch you or assault you for any reason. Big hugs.
Ballerina123 - My lovely superstar
Call me R -
The best thing about the future is that it comes one day at a time - Abraham Lincoln
I'm so sorry to hear about everything you're going through right now. Absolutely none of this is your fault, none of it. Think about the things you'd say to your loved ones if they were in your shoes; you are no different to anybody else who deserves love and care. The most important thing right now is to do the best thing for you, the only person you are responsible for is yourself, don't let anybody tell you otherwise.
Well done for calling the centre, that must have been difficult, you're doing really well. Good luck with the EIS today, let us know how you get on?
You're not on your own.
M
x
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
EIS want me in hospital but I begged just to be with htt and see them more often. They are increasing my anti psychotic on Friday as they think it will help. I hope it does help my thoughts a bit.
My head feels wrong.
Glad I didn't have to go to the hospital though. That would be more stressful I think.
The average,
well-adjusted adult
gets up at 7.30am feeling just plain terrible.
Call me Kate.
I have dyslexia so please excuse my poor spelling and sometimes poor understanding.
