Well nan, i feel cursed! Both you and mum in 6 weeks. It hurts so bad. I miss you both. I feel so alone. Two of the most important people in my life, gone so quickly, so easily! All i have is my dad now and i need you to keep him safe because without him i'm not sure what will happen to me.
Nanna, My promise to you!!! She will never forget you! You know what i mean and i will make sure she knows the real you. I'll tell her what we used to get up to and i'll show her pictures. your still my nanna and i won't let them take that away! Ur hers too. I'm sorry you died while she is still so young.
Mum, i think of you always and now you need to look after nanna! Don't worry about me, i'll pull myself through. keep dad safe because i need him more than ever! I'll go and see your family soon i promise, i shouldn't have chickened out yesterday, i'm sorry. Miss you and love you! Forever!
I still love you.Forever.But Ive come to terms with your death, a little bit of grief has melted away.Im sorry.xxx
There are times to stay put, and what you want will come to you.
But there are times to go out into the world and find such a thing for yourself.
I aint no abacus but you can count on me.
I don't know what to do nanna. Its gonna be so hard next week. Your family isn't my family and I know there trying but it feels so false. I was always there for you and they were only there every blue moon. I don't understand how they didn't want to spend time with you, you were such an amazing person. I miss you. x
Well mum, i better your loving having nan with you. I miss you everyday and it hurts so much. I want you both back so badly. We still have all your things around. Your wire is still leading out of the bedroom, I can't bare for things to change too much. With your stuff around me i can still pretend your not gone. love you!! x
Well chick, we made it to a year. I'm coming to see you i hope next week. I feel so better after i came to see you. I'd avoided it for so long, i feared it would be too and and it was sad but its so lovely and peaceful and your not hurting anymore. R.I.P chick. x
It's been three months, Emma, and you're not here, and I am there, and I am there where you were, you died and I cannot deal with this, I cannot. Emma Emma Emma if I sit there I can see you and I can see you.
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
Katie,
I hope you weren't scared
I hope you weren't in pain
I hope you know we loved you
I hope you have wings now
Please look out for Stephanie, she loved you so much.
You'll never leave our hearts.
Love Megan
i...you.
Brad. Brad and brett.
I'm so sorry.
So sorry what he did to you.
and did you know? did you know he was a coward? he couldnt take it so he took himself too.
Just like he took both of you. Your own father.
I hope. I hope you are ok.
I'm just so sorry for what he did.
xxx
It's been over 6 months since you died. I still can't believe you've gone. Me and Jodie went out the over week - she came riding with me afterwards too....I bet that amused you. It's been over a year since I last saw you, and I would give anything just to be able to hig you again and to say goodbye properly.
I want so much to come and join you. Noone will let me though - every single time I try someone stops me. It's not fair - how come you were allowed to go and I'm not??
I wish you could be here now to bang their heads together. I bet you're fuming, wherever you are, watching them fall apart like this. I wish you could sort it all out; you're their mum, they'd listen to you.
I can't help but think that me joining you would kind of shock them out of their stubbornness and pull together. 'Cause it'd take something extreme to do that...
I really wish you were here...
The only time you will find real light is when you're searching in the dark..
I was sitting in your bedroom today. Even though I don't believe in Heaven, I just kinda hoped you were watching me. I just wonder if you could come back for one day, what you would say to me. I know i'm not exactally the daughter mum wanted, but am I the granddaughter you wanted? I know nan accepts who I am, probably more than mum, and trust me, I try to look after her, I let her know I love her, because I love her to pieces and it scares me how as I get older, she does too. I don't ever want to lose her, I want her to be here forever. I want her to see me get married but i'm scared she won't. She misses you, I know she does, and she's not the only one. I know I didn't really know you, I was only a baby, but you've affected my life so much, in those 3 or so short years, you've really affected me, had an effect on my life. I hope i'm making you proud. I know I have my nose pierced, I know I wear lots of black, I know I listen to rock music, and I know you were old fashioned, I just hope, like nan, you'd look at me and think "you're different, you're so different to how I remember girls, but god do I love you, and am I proud of you.". I really want to know if you're proud. Part of the reason i'm learning Spanish is because of you. I know you liked it. Sorry i'm not so good at it, and sorry if I ever met you some day, some way, I might end up talking in French, but i'm trying. I'm not giving up, I won't give up. I'll do this, i'll get my GCSE in it, i'm sure that's something you would be proud of. I guess I failed my art, but I still do it, because somehow I feel connected to you. I know you were good, 10 times better than me, but I try, and don't stop trying.
I hope you're at peace Granddad, even if I might not be. I love you so much, and miss you so much more.
xxxx
You can't lose hope when it's hopeless.
You gotta hope more,
then put your fingers in your ears and go,
"Blah blah blah blah!"
I miss you little brother, you were the first to leave me but i know it is better this way and i hope that wherever you are you are my perfect little brother running around with you other sibling and most recently our half sibling 'Kiera'. Look after them for me little brother because i'm living my life down here for all of us. Being the oldest and the only one to survive out of the four of us means that i am living my life for all of us and i know i'm having a rough patch and i'm doing things that you will not approve of but i'm trying here so please bare with me little brother because everything i do, i do it for you. I hope Taid, Grammie, Uncle Brian, Auntie Elsie, Auntie Trixie and Uncle Jon are looking after you and pass on my best wishes. I love you little brother and i promise i will visit your grave soon, but it's hard to see that you never had a chance to live your life when i'm messing mine up. Please bare with me darling because i will get there one day; i promise.
R.I.P Jonathan, My Little Brother
You are my inspiration and i love you with all my heart. I miss you everyday and am living my life for you.
goodbye!
i wish i spoke to you more than i did, i should of spent mroe time to stop and talk to you than be all shy you know what i mean lol
just wanted to say goodbye really and youll be missed by lots of people!
xxxxxx
G.K - I love you so much. I'm so, so sorry.
Sue - Thank you so much for everything you did for me. I will never forget the kindness, the love and understanding you gave me. It broke my heart when I heard you had passed away and when I was sat in your funeral I thought I was going to break down and cry but I couldn't. Just thank you. Lots and lots. x
Location: In a glass vial in the pocket of a beautiful mind.
I am currently:
The memory of you is killing me. It's that simple now. And I don't want to do anything to stop it. Why didn't you take me with you?
rhap·so·dy - an ecstatic expression of feeling or enthusiasm. ♫
"Sacrifice is the most you can love someone." ♥
“Love was at best an excuse for stupidity, at worst a destructive, dangerous emotion that drove men to acts of annihilation which defied logic. It was a twisted, insidious sentiment used to justify everything from spoiling a child to destroying entire civilizations.”
I know it's a long time ago.
I wish I had got to meet you and know you.
Apparently I look a lot like you.
I wish I could know what you were thinking before you did it.
Lots of love xxx
They said you still had another week left but we knew you couldn't hold on that long; the cancer had taken over your whole body. I still regret not going to see you the other day; dad didn't want me to go. I know it would have been hard... They said in the last stages the cancer spread to your brain so you couldn't eat, couldn't speak, couldn't see. They said you were so thin your bones were sticking out and you were almost ready to snap. I feel terrible for thinking... Anyway, your pain is over now
R.I.P. Auntie R
The only time you will find real light is when you're searching in the dark..
I miss you all so much, even though i had such a short while to get to know you, the years we did have are some the happiest memories in my life, thankyou I shall forever tresure them. FOREVER!! ♥
Im sorry for being such a let down nan you always thought and spoke of me so highly and look how i've turned out...I WILL make you proud one day I pinky promise. Please forgive me for my actions, for the things i have said! i miss you so much x ♥ x Thankyou for everything!!!
Paula i never had the opportunity to tell you that i'm sorry for the arguement we had over nothing! i never thought that you would leave us, you were so young :'( i always though that you would be just down the road from me, that the holidays would come and that we would be back out the front playing on our bikes and whats not. im sorry xxx
It's the anniversary of your death, and the death of many of your peers. Don't forget that our school still misses you...we made sure we wore orange and maroon today...your memories live on!