Everything hurts
Hi all. So despite my decision for treatment, so far things aren't going so well. It's like my mind is rebelling against the idea of recovery. You'd think it wouldn't be, since my body sure needs it to get healthy, but that's oddly not the case.
Honestly, ever since I've been in treatment, the disordered behaviours have gotten a lot worse. I've been either bingeing/purging or restricting heavily for weeks now, way more than I had been before! Now, everything in my body hurts. My head is constantly pounding, my heart is all weird and fluttery, and I get these random stabbing pains in my chest and stomach all the time. I keep taking painkillers for it all but nothing works. I just want it all to stop, it's hard to function in daily life when you're in physical pain all the time.
Does anyone know what I can do? I know the obvious answer is to just start eating better but you know it's not that easy. Please?
Thank you so much in advance.
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