I'm lost. I'm at the end. Death, for some reason, brings me comfort. I know it shouldn't. I know I shouldn't feel this way but there's no escape.
What do I do? I need IMMEDIATE help. I need to stop hurting right now. I need SOMETHING to comfort me enough to just keep me alive. I just feel so alone!
I'm in a deep, dark place where no one can hear me scream. I just don't want to be in pain anymore. I can't hurt my family but they can't help. Therapy would take too much time. I need someone I can talk to right now. I need to feel better now. Every minute, I get closer to ending my life.
I'm not cut out for this world. It causes too much pain. Unless someone can convince me otherwise, I think this is it.
Please help if you can! I don't wanna hurt anymore and if there's another way out besides suicide, I'll certainly listen to it. Otherwise, I'm sorry. I'm sorry it has to be this way. I hope everyone understands it's my fault not theirs!
Last edited by CaptainB2 : 16-03-2012 at 03:06 PM.
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
You're not alone! Please don't do this. There is always someone to turn to, someone who cares. You are worth caring about! I don't know you're situation, but I'd love to talk, and help however I can. Please. I'm here for you
I been in a very bad place for 6 months. I screamed for help several times yet not one of my family or friends seemed to hear me.
I feel incapable of succeeding and incapable of doing anything right. I keep getting haunted by failures of the past while at the same time coming up short in present endeavors.
I'm just in a lot of pain right now and emotionally things have taken a turn for the worst. I don't even feel like I can get out of bed. Everything seems to make me anxious or depressed. In a twisted way, I almost feel like ending my life would do the world a favor. It'd be like cutting the dead weight.
I just hate who I am and I hate a lot of things about me.
I just feel like nothing can make me happy.
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
can you go to A&E, or get someone to take you. it's still afternoon, maybe phoning your GP/CPN/Psych...? x
I have none of those I can call. That's the problem, I've been keeping my feelings hidden for so long that no professional knows of my pain. My family didn't seem to get the message when I said multiple times I needed help.
Now, I'm afraid I'm just beyond the point of saving.
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
Hi, when I was feeling suicidal, calling crisis helpline helped me. I live in UK, so I was calling Samaritans. I see you are based in States, I found something like this:
Thank you. I've made it through tonight. I'm feeling a little better. I've begun to have a little fun and try to distract myself. I've even started eating normally again.
Last edited by CaptainB2 : 17-03-2012 at 05:09 AM.
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
Thanks for the support everybody. I've just been trying to find joy in the small things. For example, yesterday I wore a green t-shirt that didn't even fit me last St. Patrick's Day. Progress has been made.
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken